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sazanami jun ([personal profile] blundering) wrote2024-03-03 10:46 am
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-15 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
[That's... actually not a bad point about the perfume.]

It should be safe!

[But is it really? After a moment he admits,]

I *did* see some where the boxes said things like "Bound to drive your partner wild with excitement." I assumed they didn't mean that literally. But just in case they *did* include some sort of shady drug, I've been avoiding the ones with that sort of advertising.

[If only someone would make an exhaustive list of every single spiked product in the resort so they could be done with it. But with 90-something different floors' worth of stuff and so many hidden drugs everywhere, that's a near-impossible task.

As is getting Jun to admit to his own neediness during the Springtime game, apparently!! Hiyori frowns down at the screen, his cheeks coloring pink and his lips pursing. Yes, he definitely did some licking during that week, especially on the sixth day, but it's crude to talk about it! And anyway, he still refuses to accept all the responsibility here!!!
]

N~ope! 👿 Wrong again! ❌ Jun-kun's the one deflecting! He's completely ignoring 3 things here!

1. In the first place, the one who brought up licking was Jun-kun! It wasn't my idea, it was his! Jun-kun's neediness is what prompted it!

2. Because Jun-kun was so needy, and because I'm caring and kind, I followed along with his wishes! *That's* what happened!

3. Jun-kun enjoyed himself lots while it was happening, and never once said "that's weird!" or "that's un-wolf-like!"

And actually, there's also a 4th thing you've ignored, which is this: I wasn't trying to be wolf-like, because I wasn't really a wolf! The end! Case closed!


[Maybe in another universe they're happily sexting, as opposed to arguing about the sex they already had. Sadly they aren't in that universe, they're in this one. The one where Jun feels entitled to insult him left and right, for some reason, saying he wakes up with "bedhair" and complaining about how he sleeps! The absolute nerve of him!

Though he also called him cute. So it isn't all bad.
]

Jun-kun's still being rude to me, I see. Fine, see if I ever show you my sleeping face again!

Though I will remember you called me cute. Or my "bed hair," rather. In which case, perhaps all that other stuff was just your clumsy way of trying to pay me a compliment? Very well, I'll accept it!


[He tries to turn the tables, teasing Jun repeatedly. But when he gets to the end... well, honestly, he just feels like melting. "There are things from here I'm not gonna forget, but they all involve you?" Well... good. Unless he just means he's not going to forget the embarrassing stuff, like the wolf ears. Jun can forget those!

... but in all honesty, he's glad to hear it. Relieved, even. It feels like they might be on the same page, even before considering what "time for ourselves" might mean. So he smiles to himself again at the end, his cheeks still faintly pink.
]

Right. I want to spend time with the others, but we'll have those other plans to get to, too. Like spending a day outdoors, out in the sunlight. Or perhaps we could even go to a real resort someday - a tropical one, where you actually get what you pay for and we both make lovely memories. The world is full of fun things like that, so let's make sure to return home safely so we can do them all. Alright?
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-18 02:53 am (UTC)(link)
[As always, the "..." hovers immediately, showing that Hiyori is typing up a storm!

... Or is he? It keeps disappearing and reappearing as he types and retypes his response. He's still red-cheeked on his end, tempted to continue the argument.

No, YOU put the idea in MY head!

Why am I acting like WHAT?

Why would I have to stay awake all the time? I could just sleep somewhere away from you, since it sounds like you don't like my sleeping habits, anyway!


He types all those things and more. But in the end, he deletes them all. Too much of what Jun's saying gives him pause. Admitting that he liked what they did together, for one thing, and calling him out on the fact he's acting like Jun's the only one who enjoyed it. That's not true, of course. But when it comes to that particular act, well... it's embarrassing to admit he liked doing something like that. He's very prideful. But Jun is more honest than he is.

And that "stay awake all the time" thing, well—that must mean Jun plans for them to sleep together more often, doesn't it? They're not roommates at home anymore, or even at the resort (not at this moment, anyway), but Jun still expects to see his sleeping face regularly.

It's just too much for him to keep acting pissy. Much of what Jun's saying makes his heart flutter. And then he gets to the end (which really is a whiplash), and the rest of his defensiveness just melts away. Jun-kun is saying he wants to spend time with him, saying he'll go to a resort or wherever with him, saying they'll do "everything" once they get home. Jun-kun, in other words...

is totally in love with him!!

Or he might be on that track, anyway. At the very least, Jun cares about him. And he's saying some very romantic-sounding things.

Hiyori ignores his watch for a second and flops down on his bed, reaching for one of the pillows. This isn't the first time he's hugged his pillow while thinking about Jun here, and it will not be the last! He'll spend a good hour doing that again when he discovers that Network thread where Jun talked about "taking a shot" with him!

He doesn't spend an hour this time. But he does bury his face in it and give it a good squeeze. Sometimes when he's overcome with emotion, he just wants to hug something or someone! Sort of like he'll eventually do onstage in America, when he's so moved by what Nagisa is saying that he grabs onto Jun and hugs him tight! ... if they ever get to that point in the timeline, that is.

It's a couple of minutes later that he sits up in bed, releasing the pillow and reaching for his watch screen. Alright, no more arguments! He'll try to return... some of Jun's honesty.
]

Sounds like I don't need to wear perfume to drive Jun-kun wild with excitement! 😘

[... yep. That's how he chooses to open it: with teasing!

But the rest is more sincere.
]

I found your "cat" side endearing, to be honest. But I don't need you to act like a cat, a hyena, or anything else. It's perfectly fine for you to just be yourself. Or, actually, it's more than fine. That's the "you" our fans grew to love, after all.

And that's the "you" I call my partner, and the one I love waking up next to.


[He shoots off that last one before he can overthink it, though writing it makes the tips of his ears burn. It's an awkward attempt to tie in their conversation about sleeping habits. And, of course, it's a confession that isn't quite a confession, but he's used to giving those.]

And the one I want to do those fun things with! Like go to different places, bask in the sunlight together, and so on. There's still fun to be had here, I'm sure. But I just can't wait to see what the future has in store for us at home.

[...]

I'm sure it'll be something even more beautiful than what we've experienced so far. That's my hope, anyway.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-21 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[Dating as an idol is actually fine, just as long as you date the same unit member your fans ship you with anyway!

... or not. He knows it isn't that simple. Most of their fans don't really think they're dating; they assume Eve's fanservice is simply that. And some of them would probably have mixed feelings at best. But that's something to worry about later, he figures. For now, he wants to keep nurturing the budding flower they've planted. It's fragile and delicate, but holds the promise of something truly beautiful.

He thought he'd be fine with never dating Jun. He'd been willing to give up on things like dating in order to pursue their shared dream. But how can he go back now that he's gotten a taste of what he wanted? How could he go back when Jun's sending him messages like that? Sounding so affectionate and cute, saying he was glad he was chosen, reminding him of what he said before at SS—

........... ah.

His heart hammers against his ribcage. All at once, he's transported back to that moment from over a year ago, except his flustered feelings from back then don't hold a candle to how he feels now. Now Jun is talking about more than just singing. And that's the bottom line here, really: their partnership has come to mean something different, something other than just stage partners. Something more like life partners. How does Hiyori feel about that? "Extremely flustered," for starters.

But also glad. Deeply, fiercely glad.
]

No, I've caught on. I'm a genius with excellent social skills, remember?

[His fingers feel a little shaky. Somehow he still manages to type on the small screen.]

You'll stay by my side as long as I wish you there, whether it's to sing or not - isn't that right? If that's the case, then I accept. I want Jun-kun by my side as my partner for more than just singing.

[The "..." hovers for a while again. He feels hot, and he might even be starting to sweat under his collar (ugh.) Should he come right out and say what sort of "partnership" they're both obviously talking about? He seriously considers it.

But, in the end, stops just short. Maybe there's no need to, since it is so obvious. And if there is a need to, well, it'd be better to confess that sort of thing in-person. They'll have lots of opportunities for that, won't they?
]

I also want him there so we can go do all those things we just talked about! And lots of other things we haven't talked about, or even thought about before. We're still young, and the world's our oyster! So, I'm glad we're on the same page.

About wanting to stay together, that is.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-23 11:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Exactly. Dating Hiyori doesn't count as breaking the "no dating" rule, and sleeping with Hiyori doesn't count as playing Game 52. However, dating someone other than Hiyori would be a violation of the "no dating rule," and having sex with someone other than Hiyori would count as playing Game 52. Which means Jun mustn't do it, since they already promised they wouldn't play that thing. Glad we've cleared that up!

He's glad they've cleared the air between them, too, of course. No more arguing, just heartfelt affirmations of love. Which really is exactly what this is. And Jun just keeps going, reaffirming his commitment, saying even more unspeakably wonderful things to him. ... or typing them, anyway. This would be harder if it was in-person. There'd be no hiding his luminescent blush. Or the expression on his face, which he's sure is deeply embarrassing.

He'd been worried this place would ruin them. Their career as idols. Maybe even their souls. Instead, they'll emerge from here closer than ever before.

First they need to get out, of course. But for now, he'll allow himself a moment to bask in his feelings being returned.
]

Yep. We'll always be partners. Through thick and thin, no matter what comes our way.

[At Reimei, at ES, in a sex casino.]

Jun-kun's become that sort of irreplaceable existence to me. And that's something that won't ever change.

So it's wonderful to know the feeling is mutual. I already knew how important I was, of course. But it's good to have it confirmed!
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-26 02:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[He hasn't thought too much about what their relationship will look like at home. There's such a thing as getting ahead of oneself. Not that he thinks their feelings will fade once they've left the casino—he knows his own feelings won't, and he has faith in Jun-kun's. But first they need to get out.

Still, he's had stray thoughts here and there. And if he had to guess what dating Jun at home might be like, well... it won't be too big an adjustment, will it? They already go places together. He figures it'll be similar to what they already have, and what they already have planned: they'll go to an outdoor garden, on a trip to a real resort, and to all sorts of different locales, except now those excursions will officially be "dates." They'll touch each other suggestively for their fans while knowing inside their hearts that it's more than just "fanservice." And on nights when they're sharing a hotel room for an overnight job, or when their roommates are out, he'll invite Jun-kun to hold him tight.

That's the sort of thing he imagines, when he dares to imagine at all. Despite the uncertainty that lies ahead, it makes him happy to have all these future plans. He hopes their partnership will always remain as strong as it is right now.
]

Yes, yes of course I do! As Jun-kun's one and only partner, it makes sense that I'd know his heart best of all 💙

[And now for a pause.]

I'm glad we could have this heart to heart talk. It's funny to think this whole thing started because of that idol lesson Monika-chan wants. Which means that I have her to thank! But she wouldn't know what I was talking about if I did thank her, so I'll just say thanks silently inside my heart.

We'll have to part ways with her and the others soon, of course. Once we find the way out of here, that is. But until then, let's continue to do what we do best and spread love for idols! 😊🎵🎶🎤❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖✨ That should bring us both a great deal of joy.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-29 06:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[Hiyori would be touched if he knew what Jun said to Jin Genie.

Though he's touched right now, too, actually. As a matter of fact, he's overwhelmed. All the air in his lungs seems to leave him at once, and his heart does a somersault. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you—

Honestly, Jun-kun's going to be the death of him one of these days. Jun's heart is full?! What about his heart? His heart is overflowing! Alright, that does it! He just has to hug something!

So, time for a brief intermission where he squeezes his pillow for another minute or so. Actually, he might need two minutes.

But then he's back!!
]

You're right about that. The credit is all yours, despite what I said about Monika-chan. It's Jun-kun who's been so wonderfully honest. I know can be hard to do sometimes, so I truly am grateful. You've gotten wonderfully good at expressing yourself.

I'm glad to receive the bulk of Jun-kun's heartfelt feelings. Or rather, that's how it should be: I don't want Jun-kun's heart to be full of anyone but me!

But we still have plenty of love left leftover for our fans, of course. And we both love being idols, so that's exactly how I'd like to end our time here: with a dazzling show that's sure to raise everyone's spirits up! ✨🎵✨🎵

Even those brainwashed shop clerks need a bit of joy in their lives. Perhaps if they see us onstage, it'll unlock something within them! A memory, or a buried emotion or something like that.

Alright, now I'm really excited! I'm ready to sing, dance, and keep being Jun-kun's dazzling partner forever and ever! 💚♾️💙


[Really. Forever. He means it, he's sure of it!]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-05-31 03:40 pm (UTC)(link)
["Of course no one else will worm their way in." Ah... that truly is the best way to put it, isn't it? Monika-chan is trying to slither in between them, kind of like a worm. But there's no room for worms, caterpillars, or houseflies in Jun's heart. Glad we've cleared that up!]

Well, yes, I do deserve credit too. I just assumed that went without saying! I'm the one who helped Jun-kun get better at self-expression. And I have quite a way with words, myself, of course.

Yep! Helping ourselves takes top priority, but I do want to help whoever we can. I want everyone to get home safely and for all the brainwashed people to revert back to normal. And for us to get back to our fans, and for Monika-chan to get back to her "Player," and for Eden to conquer the world! Or at least the industry.


[Brainwashing the staff and the career residents into Eve/Eden fans is absolutely fine. It's not morally dubious at all, it's just natural! ~Our music, only our music~]

Yes, yes, I won't forget! I still have some paper and pens leftover from when I bought all that stuff for my case file, so perhaps I'll make a to-do list! Or, actually, I'll make two lists! One list for things we want to do before leaving this place, and one list for things to do at home! And I can use rhinestones in place of bullet points, since I still have some of those left over, too. How does that sound?
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-06-03 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, yes I am sure! In fact, I feel better than ever right now.

[Now that he knows Jun-kun wants to be with him forever and ever, as more than just his singing partner.]

Me too, of course. I'm sure the others feel the same. Especially Ibara, who just loooves "conquests." Perhaps we'll start with that American festival he told us about. The one he took us overseas for! "Absolute," I think it was called.

And then, once we've toured one country, it'll be onto the next one! 🗺️🌎🎶✨ And we'll get to do some sightseeing that way, too!


[Ah, travel is so much fun when it's voluntary. When it's not voluntary, it's just kidnapping!

As for Monika-chan, how could he ever pass up the opportunity to remind Jun that she ~already has a lover~ and is ~happily spoken for~?? (By her own admission, mind you. He didn't make this up!!)
]

Now I'm really pumped up! I'll get started on that list just as soon as I'm done with some other stuff.

[A pause. Then he adds, with finality:]

But I think I'd be happy doing just about anything as long as it's with Jun-kun. Almost anything, anyway.

[And then:]

But I still have lots of fun ideas I wouldn't want to miss out on, so it's good that we're on the same page!
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-06-06 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Water city"? Ah, you mean the Grand Canal in Venice? Now that *would* be fun! It'd be lovely to go on one of those boat rides with all 4 of us. That would also make for a great photoshoot! Since we both like that idea, I'll add it to our to-do list! Or our "To-See" list. Or maybe our "To-Go" list? I'm not sure what to call it yet.

And I'm sure Nagisa-kun would love to see the Collosseum! If he hasn't already. I think he might've gone there once before. Back when we were at Yumenosaki, he'd jet off whenever he felt like it. He'd just disappear and then reappear some days later with souvenirs from abroad and some new story to tell about historic sites or archaeological digs. But these days he doesn't really have time in his schedule for that, plus Ibara wouldn't allow it, so we'll just have to travel together!

Then if we're feeling extra ambitious, we could not only consider touring the world, but also other universes! Topaz-chan said that her company manufactures airplanes which can travel between dimensions, so something like that might just be possible. We could become the world's first truly "cosmic" idols!

Though, there's already plenty to see in our world. And the thought of getting stuck between dimensions is a bit disconcerting. So I think I'd be fine without that, too.


[There's a lull between bursts of text as Jun manages to articulate something he's also felt. "Our circumstances are shitty, but I'm happy with all of it" really isn't too far from his own feelings. Of course he isn't happy with everything that's going on, or even most of it. But he's finding himself feeling happy more and more often lately, and he knows it's all because of Jun. It's because he has Jun at his side. He meant it when he said he'd be happy doing almost anything with Jun. And it's the same for Jun, isn't it?

Nothing, not Rinne's disappearance or the forced tattoos or the Springtime game or anything, can completely kill the simple joy of being with his partner. Or the still-more-exhilarating joy of having his secret feelings returned. Some of his usual worries will return later, but right now, he's over the moon. So over the moon, he doesn't even mind when Jun messes up that motto he came up with during Eve's formation!
]

Silly Jun-kun. It's one body, two souls! 💚💙 Because we move together onstage as one!

But the way you said it isn't completely wrong. Since it seems our innermost thoughts and feelings are in-sync today, too. Almost like we *are* sharing a soul.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-06-09 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
Not to worry! I'm always graceful, so there's not a chance I'll fall in. And Nagisa-kun was really into snorkeling for 1 week last year, so I'm sure he'd be just fine even if he did! And Ibara *should* be able to swim given his military background. I'm also sure that even if I did fall in, Jun-kun would immediately dive to my rescue! But that does sound like a hassle, so it's best to just avoid it!

As for the photoshoot part, I figure we can have a camera crew photographing us from another boat or else from one of the bridges. And then we can also take photographs at all the other sightseeing locations. That should be fun for us and for our fans!

It's definitely considered theft to take parts of the Colosseum home. But I do know he's been on excavations in other countries before. Perhaps one day he'll have a shiny stone from every country on Earth! 💎

Will we see her outside the resort, you mean? Honestly, she sounds rather busy, just like Anzu-chan or Ibara. And it also sounds as though she lives in a completely different dimension from us. But if we do find a way to travel between worlds, then perhaps!

I do agree with you about space, though. I don't like dark, cold and lonely places, so on second thought, let's scratch that.


[Sorry, Ibara. Sorry, CosPro.

... it really is a silly thing. Feeling his heart soar because of some emojis. But he has the softest smile on his face when he sees Jun return them. He couldn't be happier with how things have turned out.
]

But even if we did travel to space, we'd still be "one body, two souls." In this world, in another world, in the next life, wherever!

Or at least that's what I'll choose to believe, since that's what would make me happiest, too.


[He knows he's only reiterating Jun's words. And his own. But he'll keep saying shmoopy things like that, revealing his heart bit by bit, until the day he feels he's found the right moment to come right out and state his feelings upfront.

He will be thinking them in his heart, though. "I love Jun-kun."
]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-06-11 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
["You're pretty much right," Jun says. And that's why he assumes!]

Yep, of course Jun-kun would prioritize me over getting water in his shoes! That's how things are, and that's how they should be!

I know I've already suggested different this, but we can always try on clothes and take some photos here, by the way. It won't be nearly the same as a real photoshoot, but we'll want to do that anyway so we can figure out what to wear for our shuffle performance!


[Whenever... that happens.]

It's just obvious, since that's a historical landmark. It'd be sort of like trying to take ancient artwork home from a museum. Though I wonder if that's what our captors have done, since some of the art pieces in the elevators look eerily similar to famous works. If they're just reproductions, then they're rather skilled ones.

Someone suggested that we could be in space here, for all we know. They've cut off any way to view the outside world, after all. I didn't really buy that, though, since I don't feel the slightest bit weightless here.


[It was Atsushi who shared that idea.

Also, the last part might just be a lie. Because every time Jun reaffirms his feelings for him, he does feel like he's floating on up to cloud nine. Like now, for instance.

There's a lot weighing on him in this place. A constant heaviness sitting in his chest, threatening to sink his heart like a stone. But that feeling is gone now. As long as he has Jun-kun...
]

I don't feel too heavy anymore, either, though. And that's because of you, I'm sure. And because of that understanding that we reached.

Thanks, Jun-kun.

💚
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-06-15 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
I've trained you well, I see~ 🏊 I still don't intend to fall in, but I'm sure your fans would be impressed if they saw you dive heroically to my rescue. Perhaps you'll get to do a similar scene in a drama someday.

[Though they'd probably just use a stunt double.]

Just for us, hmm?

[He's not sure whether Jun is talking about new stage costumes, or about their plans to try on cute dresses at some point, or what. But either way:]

That sounds wonderful to me! You already know this, but I love shopping, so I don't mind if we go on multiple trips. One trip for shuffle unit costumes, one trip for cute outfits, and a third trip for more matching clothes! 👯🛍️

[They'll be shopping for matching outfits for Weiss's party next month, anyway. And he and Weiss will also be looking at shuffle costumes.]

Perhaps we can investigate the brushstrokes with a magnifying glass. I'm sort of like a detective here, so it's probably time I got one of those. I do try to avoid riding the elevators with others, since there are those weird talking portraits in there, but I suppose it's fine if it's just with Jun-kun.

I don't think the laws of gravity are a myth... But this place seems to run on magic, so anything is possible, I guess. For example


[He pauses.

Does he really want to say that? But they've already said so much, Jun included. So it should be fine.
]

I sometimes feel like I'm floating in zero gravity when I'm talking to Jun-kun!

Or when you touch me.

Anyway, talk to you later! 💚


[And then he tabs out of the conversation before he can see Jun's reply, flopping his head down on his pillow again.

... he'll check again in a minute. Or a few minutes. But for now, he'll just lie down and wait for his heart to return to normal, a smile still lingering on his lips after all the sweet things Jun said to him.
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