[ Which begs the question of whether it counts once they return home? It's not as if much will change, though would it be breaking the "no dating" rule back home? Maybe dating Hiyori in general bypasses the rule! Well, they might figure it out once they return if they can bypass this mess, having their "relationship" last through it.
He's never really committed to anyone before, though with the air being cleared between them, it only makes sense to affirm those feelings. His feelings for Hiyori are real, they've always been real, and it's not because of some sex casino that he has them. And Hiyori has been affirming that he feels the same, both with as few words as possible.
It's not as if they need big, fancy words to convey how they feel for one another, either. So he'll allow himself a moment for his heartrate to drop, knowing his feelings are being returned as well. And knowing Hiyori's become that sort of person to him as well, no one could come close to replacing his partner in his heart. ]
nothings gonna stop us, no matter how hard it will be.
[ They've already done half of those things. And boy, his cheeks hurt from grinning too much, but it's all worth it to hear those sweet words.
Well, until Hiyori types the last part! Which only causes him to laugh under his breath, his cheeks flaring with burning heat while remaining glad no one, especially not HIyori, can see how flushed his cheeks are. ]
yeah, yeah. good thing that's also not gonna change for me. and even if you wanna claim you already know!
[He hasn't thought too much about what their relationship will look like at home. There's such a thing as getting ahead of oneself. Not that he thinks their feelings will fade once they've left the casino—he knows his own feelings won't, and he has faith in Jun-kun's. But first they need to get out.
Still, he's had stray thoughts here and there. And if he had to guess what dating Jun at home might be like, well... it won't be too big an adjustment, will it? They already go places together. He figures it'll be similar to what they already have, and what they already have planned: they'll go to an outdoor garden, on a trip to a real resort, and to all sorts of different locales, except now those excursions will officially be "dates." They'll touch each other suggestively for their fans while knowing inside their hearts that it's more than just "fanservice." And on nights when they're sharing a hotel room for an overnight job, or when their roommates are out, he'll invite Jun-kun to hold him tight.
That's the sort of thing he imagines, when he dares to imagine at all. Despite the uncertainty that lies ahead, it makes him happy to have all these future plans. He hopes their partnership will always remain as strong as it is right now.]
Yes, yes of course I do! As Jun-kun's one and only partner, it makes sense that I'd know his heart best of all 💙
[And now for a pause.]
I'm glad we could have this heart to heart talk. It's funny to think this whole thing started because of that idol lesson Monika-chan wants. Which means that I have her to thank! But she wouldn't know what I was talking about if I did thank her, so I'll just say thanks silently inside my heart.
We'll have to part ways with her and the others soon, of course. Once we find the way out of here, that is. But until then, let's continue to do what we do best and spread love for idols! 😊🎵🎶🎤❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖✨ That should bring us both a great deal of joy.
[ Personally, Jun doesn't mind how this goes, as long as they stick together through it all. Those proper thoughts on how relationships and the like work will come, so whichever route they decide suits him fine.
Already, their partnership seemed different from normal—different from what someone might have called a normal one to be. But he doesn't mind now; all those times of denying anything was going on seemed long ago, but most of all, he wants to go on all these wonderful trips together. Not just for a job! There is nothing between them which can change; it'll be the same as it ever was, except now they can kiss and hold hands whenever they'd like! And then find time to spend alone together. It's just... Jun isn't too picky; he wants to do all those things and more, but most of all, wanting to spend time on official dates sounds as if it's going to be amazing.
Really, he can't wait to imagine all these things together. ]
yep, seems like you do, ohii-san ♪ good thing my heart is just filled with you, huh~!
[ Just like he'd said in his dream that one time! And the blue heart, especially in his image colour, makes him smile. ]
it pretty much turned out how i'd hoped it might. but i started thinking about stuff too much and the words somehow wrote themselves. monika-san's not gonna really know what you're going on about, so might be good for her to figure it out on her own.
guess we will.. haven't thought about it too much. sides, this place needs *something* cheerful in it, so that'd be us, right~ give this place a performance worth remembering before we're outta here! so i wanna do it.
[ Thinking about leaving is a lot, but it's the right way. Sure, leaving behind all this is what he wants to do, as is wanting to be reunited with Ibara and Nagi-senpai! But most of all, he's ready for the next chapter in their life together. ]
[Hiyori would be touched if he knew what Jun said to Jin Genie.
Though he's touched right now, too, actually. As a matter of fact, he's overwhelmed. All the air in his lungs seems to leave him at once, and his heart does a somersault. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you—
Honestly, Jun-kun's going to be the death of him one of these days. Jun's heart is full?! What about his heart? His heart is overflowing! Alright, that does it! He just has to hug something!
So, time for a brief intermission where he squeezes his pillow for another minute or so. Actually, he might need two minutes.
But then he's back!!]
You're right about that. The credit is all yours, despite what I said about Monika-chan. It's Jun-kun who's been so wonderfully honest. I know can be hard to do sometimes, so I truly am grateful. You've gotten wonderfully good at expressing yourself.
I'm glad to receive the bulk of Jun-kun's heartfelt feelings. Or rather, that's how it should be: I don't want Jun-kun's heart to be full of anyone but me!
But we still have plenty of love left leftover for our fans, of course. And we both love being idols, so that's exactly how I'd like to end our time here: with a dazzling show that's sure to raise everyone's spirits up! ✨🎵✨🎵
Even those brainwashed shop clerks need a bit of joy in their lives. Perhaps if they see us onstage, it'll unlock something within them! A memory, or a buried emotion or something like that.
Alright, now I'm really excited! I'm ready to sing, dance, and keep being Jun-kun's dazzling partner forever and ever! 💚♾️💙
[ Nope, what he said to Jin-genie is just too embarrassing! (Apparently not embarrassing enough to tell Sakura-kun about it.)
What he typed seems awfully close, and it's not wrong in the least. His heart is often full, filled with thoughts of Hiyori, the same as right now. How can anyone quell the beating of their heart when it's this intense?
Never had he thought he could say (or write) these things, not without a little help, or rather, he was fine going to the grave with these unsurpressed feelings. But now he's had a taste of what they could be, those conflicting feelings have increased ten-fold.
Which, at this point, Ibara will just have to deal with! ]
not just mine, but also yours! and i really mean every word, ohii-san. i've been really trying, you know! but i'm glad you've noticed, cuz you're right, expressing these feelings has been hard! so i'll keep getting better at the trying thing! course no one else'll worm their way in, so don't worry ~
and we'll do that! i'll never forget our fans, or wouldn't wanna give them the love they give us in return~ just means they'll remember our songs, which will be good for anyone here to remember us by. if we can help them, then we'll do it!
[ Instead, the brainwashed workers will be brainwashed by Eve instead! Sounds like the perfect plan. ]
and there's nothing more i'd wanna do with you, ohii-san. and don't forget about getting to do all those things we said together, too.
[ The word forever has many meanings, but ultimately, it's exactly what Jun means by this. If it's forever, even better! ]
["Of course no one else will worm their way in." Ah... that truly is the best way to put it, isn't it? Monika-chan is trying to slither in between them, kind of like a worm. But there's no room for worms, caterpillars, or houseflies in Jun's heart. Glad we've cleared that up!]
Well, yes, I do deserve credit too. I just assumed that went without saying! I'm the one who helped Jun-kun get better at self-expression. And I have quite a way with words, myself, of course.
Yep! Helping ourselves takes top priority, but I do want to help whoever we can. I want everyone to get home safely and for all the brainwashed people to revert back to normal. And for us to get back to our fans, and for Monika-chan to get back to her "Player," and for Eden to conquer the world! Or at least the industry.
[Brainwashing the staff and the career residents into Eve/Eden fans is absolutely fine. It's not morally dubious at all, it's just natural! ~Our music, only our music~]
Yes, yes, I won't forget! I still have some paper and pens leftover from when I bought all that stuff for my case file, so perhaps I'll make a to-do list! Or, actually, I'll make two lists! One list for things we want to do before leaving this place, and one list for things to do at home! And I can use rhinestones in place of bullet points, since I still have some of those left over, too. How does that sound?
[ Even if Jun doesn't see it quite yet, that's definitely something close. He also doesn't have time or energy to let someone else in, so that's how it's going to stay! ]
you sure you're feeling fine? it's not like you to not wanna take credit. well, i'm not gonna lie and say you didn't, ohii-san. pretty obvious you helped, so thanks for that.
[ Most of the anger inside his heart had been quelled or "bleached" out, given Hiyori's sunny disposition. It's a stark contrast how different Jun used to act to now, though. ]
the thing is, i dunno who "needs help" here. but we'll try our best to help unbrainwash those sorta people. and we'll just keep conquering the industry, ohii-san! i still wanna perform overseas in a big arena, so let's make our way home soon!
[ But Hiyori, are you sure you're not the one with an obsession for Monika? He's sure mentioning her a lot! ]
yeah, sure! if you wanna keep all the stuff we wanna do in a file, that'd be good. maybe if our moods get low, we'll look at the list, and it'll give us more motivation! and sounds good to me, ohii-san. we'll just do as much as we can and leave the rest until later.
Yes, yes I am sure! In fact, I feel better than ever right now.
[Now that he knows Jun-kun wants to be with him forever and ever, as more than just his singing partner.]
Me too, of course. I'm sure the others feel the same. Especially Ibara, who just loooves "conquests." Perhaps we'll start with that American festival he told us about. The one he took us overseas for! "Absolute," I think it was called.
And then, once we've toured one country, it'll be onto the next one! 🗺️🌎🎶✨ And we'll get to do some sightseeing that way, too!
[Ah, travel is so much fun when it's voluntary. When it's not voluntary, it's just kidnapping!
As for Monika-chan, how could he ever pass up the opportunity to remind Jun that she ~already has a lover~ and is ~happily spoken for~?? (By her own admission, mind you. He didn't make this up!!)]
Now I'm really pumped up! I'll get started on that list just as soon as I'm done with some other stuff.
[A pause. Then he adds, with finality:]
But I think I'd be happy doing just about anything as long as it's with Jun-kun. Almost anything, anyway.
[And then:]
But I still have lots of fun ideas I wouldn't want to miss out on, so it's good that we're on the same page!
[ And now that Hiyori's accepted, life couldn't be any better. Jun might not be squeezing his pillow tight, he feels optimistic about their future. ]
i'm pretty confident nagi-senpai will keep ibara away from conquests, or just this one. but i know we'll make it over there once we get outta here! and your english was pretty good last time, so i'm gonna keep trusting in your skills ♪
i dunno what other countries we'll go to, but all of them! i hope we'll see all the colosseums one day, and the water city thing!
[ Venice, he's talking about Venice! And thinking about the places they'll go to or even perform at is a lot of fun. But first, they'll need to break out of this silly sex casino and then bug Ibara until Eden's allowed to perform overseas! Sounds like a plan.
Besides, he knows that, and Monika's not the person Jun wants to be with forever and ever! It would never work out, especially when they go their separate ways and live very different lives. (However, he is quite curious who this "player" person is!)]
no rush, ohii-san! i'll look forward to whenever you get started on it.
and on top of that, our circumstances are pretty shitty right now, but i'm gonna be happy with all of it, too.
[ Although uncertain what those things might involve, the future does seem promising. ]
my minds racing with all the things i wanna do with you by my side. guess we're really "two bodies, one soul," or the thing you always say about us.
"Water city"? Ah, you mean the Grand Canal in Venice? Now that *would* be fun! It'd be lovely to go on one of those boat rides with all 4 of us. That would also make for a great photoshoot! Since we both like that idea, I'll add it to our to-do list! Or our "To-See" list. Or maybe our "To-Go" list? I'm not sure what to call it yet.
And I'm sure Nagisa-kun would love to see the Collosseum! If he hasn't already. I think he might've gone there once before. Back when we were at Yumenosaki, he'd jet off whenever he felt like it. He'd just disappear and then reappear some days later with souvenirs from abroad and some new story to tell about historic sites or archaeological digs. But these days he doesn't really have time in his schedule for that, plus Ibara wouldn't allow it, so we'll just have to travel together!
Then if we're feeling extra ambitious, we could not only consider touring the world, but also other universes! Topaz-chan said that her company manufactures airplanes which can travel between dimensions, so something like that might just be possible. We could become the world's first truly "cosmic" idols!
Though, there's already plenty to see in our world. And the thought of getting stuck between dimensions is a bit disconcerting. So I think I'd be fine without that, too.
[There's a lull between bursts of text as Jun manages to articulate something he's also felt. "Our circumstances are shitty, but I'm happy with all of it" really isn't too far from his own feelings. Of course he isn't happy with everything that's going on, or even most of it. But he's finding himself feeling happy more and more often lately, and he knows it's all because of Jun. It's because he has Jun at his side. He meant it when he said he'd be happy doing almost anything with Jun. And it's the same for Jun, isn't it?
Nothing, not Rinne's disappearance or the forced tattoos or the Springtime game or anything, can completely kill the simple joy of being with his partner. Or the still-more-exhilarating joy of having his secret feelings returned. Some of his usual worries will return later, but right now, he's over the moon. So over the moon, he doesn't even mind when Jun messes up that motto he came up with during Eve's formation!]
Silly Jun-kun. It's one body, two souls! 💚💙 Because we move together onstage as one!
But the way you said it isn't completely wrong. Since it seems our innermost thoughts and feelings are in-sync today, too. Almost like we *are* sharing a soul.
yep, those boat rides were what i was thinking about. well, yeah, but it'd be sorta dangerous, so we've gotta make sure no one falls in. so adding it to our list works!
[ Thinking about one of them falling in would be hilariously funny. And regardless of the name Hiyori chooses, the list will be for them alone. ]
well, nagi-senpai can give us a tour! i knew he'd been overseas, but not over there, so that's pretty cool. that's gotta be where he got all those rocks from ♪
i dunno if i'm feeling *that* ambitious, ohii-san. touring other planets and being in space sounds pretty scary. d'you think we'll see topaz-san again?
[ If so, then it would help. Out of most people he's met here, he enjoys talking to Topaz; she's pretty much the only "normal" person. Well, besides her worth ethic being eerily similar to Ibara's... ]
huh, why'd you go and say that? being stuck in space has gotta be the last thing we should be doing.
[ He's pretty happy touring Earth for now! Even if Ibara might applaud Hiyori's ideas, he's going to staunchly refuse. (Nagi-senpai, please agree space is no place for idols!!!) Despite the freakout of Eden being lost in space, he waits for the next feeling to set in. It's crappy circumstances this happened, but he's happy that they've come to an understanding.
Hiyori's contagious happiness is exactly how he feels, unable to stop the constant smile he's been wearing lately. Having Hiyori by his side has made a few realisations come to fruition, showing just how fortunate he's been, not just in this place, but always with Hiyori around. And without a doubt, the most obvious one has to be how attached Jun's grown. He meant it, too, just how his fondness has grown, blossoming into his feelings having been returned. It may not stay this way forever, but once they get out, perhaps nothing will stop them. No fans, no Ibara, no silly no-dating rule!
The colourful hearts constantly seem to catch him off guard, tugging at his heart for no "apparent" reason other than being their image colours. And he was not a big fan of emojis before meeting Hiyori, but hearts now seem to represent a variety of emotions for them. Don't they?
Phew! He's not been called out on messing up the motto, even though he's heard it numerous times before. ]
close enough~ one body, two souls 💚💙
i'm gonna agree we've been pretty in-sync today, like we're on stage, 'cept we're not! and being honest, i wanna keep being in-sync with you, ohii-san, cuz nothing's gonna make me happier.
[ With each passing day, he's getting closer and closer to understanding how this feels a lot like love. Being open, trying to articulate these feelings will come and go as the realisation eventually settles in. ]
Not to worry! I'm always graceful, so there's not a chance I'll fall in. And Nagisa-kun was really into snorkeling for 1 week last year, so I'm sure he'd be just fine even if he did! And Ibara *should* be able to swim given his military background. I'm also sure that even if I did fall in, Jun-kun would immediately dive to my rescue! But that does sound like a hassle, so it's best to just avoid it!
As for the photoshoot part, I figure we can have a camera crew photographing us from another boat or else from one of the bridges. And then we can also take photographs at all the other sightseeing locations. That should be fun for us and for our fans!
It's definitely considered theft to take parts of the Colosseum home. But I do know he's been on excavations in other countries before. Perhaps one day he'll have a shiny stone from every country on Earth! 💎
Will we see her outside the resort, you mean? Honestly, she sounds rather busy, just like Anzu-chan or Ibara. And it also sounds as though she lives in a completely different dimension from us. But if we do find a way to travel between worlds, then perhaps!
I do agree with you about space, though. I don't like dark, cold and lonely places, so on second thought, let's scratch that.
... it really is a silly thing. Feeling his heart soar because of some emojis. But he has the softest smile on his face when he sees Jun return them. He couldn't be happier with how things have turned out.]
But even if we did travel to space, we'd still be "one body, two souls." In this world, in another world, in the next life, wherever!
Or at least that's what I'll choose to believe, since that's what would make me happiest, too.
[He knows he's only reiterating Jun's words. And his own. But he'll keep saying shmoopy things like that, revealing his heart bit by bit, until the day he feels he's found the right moment to come right out and state his feelings upfront.
He will be thinking them in his heart, though. "I love Jun-kun."]
but you're just assuming i'd jump in! well, you're pretty much right. i'd not even take my shoes off just to save you, y'know?! but you've got me thinking maybe we should use some sorta rope, just to be on the safe side.
yeah, i'm liking the idea of the photoshoot! now we've not had one for months, i kinda miss getting all sorts of new clothes and posing for the camera. i know it'd be something new, not many idols can say they've done!
[ Heading off to Venice with Eden sounds wonderful, and with a photoshoot to boot? Even more wonderful! Talking about all about the fun and silly things they might do once they leave has felt comforting. ]
huh, how'd you know that? well, here's hoping nagi-senpai didn't take anything! yeah, i think he's gotta be close, cuz he's already got a buncha cool rocks.
hmm, yeah, i guess it'd be tricky with different dimensions. maybe we'll be the first to figure it out! and that's what i'm thinking. i'm pretty sure space ships have got heating, but you're right about the lonely part.
[ Rip Ibara and CosPro!
The emojis feel as if it's their thing, whatever that means! He's filled with warmth, causing a broad grin to spread across his face. It's the kind of feeling that would make you want to relax on the bed, grinning at your phone (or, in this instance, watch), and scream into a pillow. This is exactly how Jun feels at the moment, as if he were some lovestruck teenager!
Having Hiyori reiterate the same fills him with excitement. He's never, ever felt this way about someone, but here those words are in text! And if Jun's ever having a bad day, he'll open his watch and re-read the shmoopy texts the two have been sending, and all will be right in the world. ]
it's good we want the same thing, ohii-san. we've sorta reached another understanding, haven't we? i mean, about us!
and i'm really happy, ohii-san.
[ He doesn't quite remember how this conversation started, nor does it matter by this point. Something about Monika. But he feels closer than ever to Ohii-san, allowing him into his heart and realising with each passing day how the feeling of having your love returned changes you for the better. ]
["You're pretty much right," Jun says. And that's why he assumes!]
Yep, of course Jun-kun would prioritize me over getting water in his shoes! That's how things are, and that's how they should be!
I know I've already suggested different this, but we can always try on clothes and take some photos here, by the way. It won't be nearly the same as a real photoshoot, but we'll want to do that anyway so we can figure out what to wear for our shuffle performance!
[Whenever... that happens.]
It's just obvious, since that's a historical landmark. It'd be sort of like trying to take ancient artwork home from a museum. Though I wonder if that's what our captors have done, since some of the art pieces in the elevators look eerily similar to famous works. If they're just reproductions, then they're rather skilled ones.
Someone suggested that we could be in space here, for all we know. They've cut off any way to view the outside world, after all. I didn't really buy that, though, since I don't feel the slightest bit weightless here.
Also, the last part might just be a lie. Because every time Jun reaffirms his feelings for him, he does feel like he's floating on up to cloud nine. Like now, for instance.
There's a lot weighing on him in this place. A constant heaviness sitting in his chest, threatening to sink his heart like a stone. But that feeling is gone now. As long as he has Jun-kun...]
I don't feel too heavy anymore, either, though. And that's because of you, I'm sure. And because of that understanding that we reached.
[ Well, he'd be a terrible partner if he left Hiyori to drown! ]
yeah, i'd probably not think about it and dive right in. can't really have anything happen to my partner ~
and i wanna do that, so we just gotta find time! good thing my schedules pretty open these days. but looking for our shuffle outfits would be a good start, but i'd been sorta hoping maybe we could still look for some outfits. y'know, just for us...?
[ But it's just, well, he wants to see Hiyori in cute clothes! And not just cute clothes for their shuffle unit. Also his vague ass answer, wishing he could come right out and say exactly what he wants. ]
how'd i know that? i don't know much about the world, ohii-san, or paintings. but, hmm, you think those're the real deal? maybe next time we're in one, i'll take a better look.
well, it sorta makes sense cuz we've got no fresh air or sunlight. and there's gotta be none of that out in space, just darkness and stars. feeling weightless could be a myth, couldn't it?? maybe that's what they want you to think.
[ We need mythbusters out here!! Wow, Atsushi seems to be filled with knowledge.
Personally, he's not too sure about feeling weightless. Here, in this place, there's often an uneasiness weighing in the air, mostly from the Game 52 nonsense. But the feeling subsides whenever he's near Hiyori, whenever he's talking to Hiyori, and whenever he's thinking about Hiyori.
Needless to say, Jun's in Deep.
And deeper in, whenever Hiyori's transparent with him, talking about their feelings, his heart flips again at the green heart. ]
you were feeling heavy, ohii-san? if you're ever feeling heavy again, just let me know! cuz i'd do anything to take away the feeling, y'know? ♪ i'm gonna make sure there's never any confusion between us again.
I've trained you well, I see~ 🏊 I still don't intend to fall in, but I'm sure your fans would be impressed if they saw you dive heroically to my rescue. Perhaps you'll get to do a similar scene in a drama someday.
[Though they'd probably just use a stunt double.]
Just for us, hmm?
[He's not sure whether Jun is talking about new stage costumes, or about their plans to try on cute dresses at some point, or what. But either way:]
That sounds wonderful to me! You already know this, but I love shopping, so I don't mind if we go on multiple trips. One trip for shuffle unit costumes, one trip for cute outfits, and a third trip for more matching clothes! 👯🛍️
[They'll be shopping for matching outfits for Weiss's party next month, anyway. And he and Weiss will also be looking at shuffle costumes.]
Perhaps we can investigate the brushstrokes with a magnifying glass. I'm sort of like a detective here, so it's probably time I got one of those. I do try to avoid riding the elevators with others, since there are those weird talking portraits in there, but I suppose it's fine if it's just with Jun-kun.
I don't think the laws of gravity are a myth... But this place seems to run on magic, so anything is possible, I guess. For example
[He pauses.
Does he really want to say that? But they've already said so much, Jun included. So it should be fine.]
I sometimes feel like I'm floating in zero gravity when I'm talking to Jun-kun!
Or when you touch me.
Anyway, talk to you later! 💚
[And then he tabs out of the conversation before he can see Jun's reply, flopping his head down on his pillow again.
... he'll check again in a minute. Or a few minutes. But for now, he'll just lie down and wait for his heart to return to normal, a smile still lingering on his lips after all the sweet things Jun said to him.]
[ Hiyori's texts are a joy to read, bringing a smile to his face. Despite the risks, he'd rather insist on performing all his own stunts, refusing to use a stunt double. However, the offer still stands - where he would happily jump in to save Hiyori.
Honestly, most of the texts read innocuous enough, with Jun suspecting nothing until reaching the last line.
Hiyori feels like he's floating in zero gravity, not only when they talk, but also when he touches him.
The text has his cheeks flushing, re-reading the words over and over for a good couple of minutes before finding a proper response. Also with a few backspaces, the '...' lingering for another couple of minutes as he's crafting his response. ]
hey, you can't go running off after telling me that, y'know?
cuz i'm telling you right now i feel the same way! when you touch me, it's overwhelming, like you've only got eyes for me. but sometimes my heart pounds hard i seriously think it's gonna burst outta my chest.
and on top of that, you're always in my head! so i just wanna let you know you're someone i think about. a lot.
so whenever you read my text, just know it's sorta embarrassing admitting how you're always there. always on my mind and just there, right where you belong. 💚💙
[ He'll also tab out for the time being, needing to calm his racing heart. There are plenty more words he could sum up, how he feels most of the time and more! But a point has been made, Hiyori does occupy his mind (and heart) nearly all the time. ]
[He doesn't see the "..." hovering. He's not looking at his watch, after all! He said something a bit embarrassing, and then he scrammed.
He can't resist checking after a few minutes, though. And when he does check, it's another shot straight to the heart. More sweet, passionate words, typed just for him, and to top it all off, Jun saw right through him. "Like you've only got eyes for me," Jun said. And it's true, he does.
"That's because I do have eyes only for you," he considers writing. But he stops himself. He's shared enough of his heart today. Almost his entire heart. He's exhausted! Though in a good way, akin to the tired exhilaration he feels after giving it his all onstage.
He goes back to curling up in bed. In the end he doesn't send anything, but that's fine. He and Jun are never apart for long, and when they see each other for dinner later. There are no more mushy heart-to-hearts, at least not for now, but when he smiles at Jun across the table, there's something soft and knowing in his eyes. And he thinks he can see his own feelings reflected back.
In other words: a new lovey-dovey saga in his life has begun. Golden Peacock doujin authors, get your pens ready...!]
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He's never really committed to anyone before, though with the air being cleared between them, it only makes sense to affirm those feelings. His feelings for Hiyori are real, they've always been real, and it's not because of some sex casino that he has them. And Hiyori has been affirming that he feels the same, both with as few words as possible.
It's not as if they need big, fancy words to convey how they feel for one another, either. So he'll allow himself a moment for his heartrate to drop, knowing his feelings are being returned as well. And knowing Hiyori's become that sort of person to him as well, no one could come close to replacing his partner in his heart. ]
nothings gonna stop us, no matter how hard it will be.
[ They've already done half of those things. And boy, his cheeks hurt from grinning too much, but it's all worth it to hear those sweet words.
Well, until Hiyori types the last part! Which only causes him to laugh under his breath, his cheeks flaring with burning heat while remaining glad no one, especially not HIyori, can see how flushed his cheeks are. ]
yeah, yeah. good thing that's also not gonna change for me. and even if you wanna claim you already know!
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Still, he's had stray thoughts here and there. And if he had to guess what dating Jun at home might be like, well... it won't be too big an adjustment, will it? They already go places together. He figures it'll be similar to what they already have, and what they already have planned: they'll go to an outdoor garden, on a trip to a real resort, and to all sorts of different locales, except now those excursions will officially be "dates." They'll touch each other suggestively for their fans while knowing inside their hearts that it's more than just "fanservice." And on nights when they're sharing a hotel room for an overnight job, or when their roommates are out, he'll invite Jun-kun to hold him tight.
That's the sort of thing he imagines, when he dares to imagine at all. Despite the uncertainty that lies ahead, it makes him happy to have all these future plans. He hopes their partnership will always remain as strong as it is right now.]
Yes, yes of course I do! As Jun-kun's one and only partner, it makes sense that I'd know his heart best of all 💙
[And now for a pause.]
I'm glad we could have this heart to heart talk. It's funny to think this whole thing started because of that idol lesson Monika-chan wants. Which means that I have her to thank! But she wouldn't know what I was talking about if I did thank her, so I'll just say thanks silently inside my heart.
We'll have to part ways with her and the others soon, of course. Once we find the way out of here, that is. But until then, let's continue to do what we do best and spread love for idols! 😊🎵🎶🎤❤️🧡💛💚💙💜💖✨ That should bring us both a great deal of joy.
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Already, their partnership seemed different from normal—different from what someone might have called a normal one to be. But he doesn't mind now; all those times of denying anything was going on seemed long ago, but most of all, he wants to go on all these wonderful trips together. Not just for a job! There is nothing between them which can change; it'll be the same as it ever was, except now they can kiss and hold hands whenever they'd like! And then find time to spend alone together. It's just... Jun isn't too picky; he wants to do all those things and more, but most of all, wanting to spend time on official dates sounds as if it's going to be amazing.
Really, he can't wait to imagine all these things together. ]
yep, seems like you do, ohii-san ♪ good thing my heart is just filled with you, huh~!
[ Just like he'd said in his dream that one time! And the blue heart, especially in his image colour, makes him smile. ]
it pretty much turned out how i'd hoped it might. but i started thinking about stuff too much and the words somehow wrote themselves. monika-san's not gonna really know what you're going on about, so might be good for her to figure it out on her own.
guess we will.. haven't thought about it too much. sides, this place needs *something* cheerful in it, so that'd be us, right~ give this place a performance worth remembering before we're outta here! so i wanna do it.
[ Thinking about leaving is a lot, but it's the right way. Sure, leaving behind all this is what he wants to do, as is wanting to be reunited with Ibara and Nagi-senpai! But most of all, he's ready for the next chapter in their life together. ]
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Though he's touched right now, too, actually. As a matter of fact, he's overwhelmed. All the air in his lungs seems to leave him at once, and his heart does a somersault. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you. My heart is just filled with you—
Honestly, Jun-kun's going to be the death of him one of these days. Jun's heart is full?! What about his heart? His heart is overflowing! Alright, that does it! He just has to hug something!
So, time for a brief intermission where he squeezes his pillow for another minute or so. Actually, he might need two minutes.
But then he's back!!]
You're right about that. The credit is all yours, despite what I said about Monika-chan. It's Jun-kun who's been so wonderfully honest. I know can be hard to do sometimes, so I truly am grateful. You've gotten wonderfully good at expressing yourself.
I'm glad to receive the bulk of Jun-kun's heartfelt feelings. Or rather, that's how it should be: I don't want Jun-kun's heart to be full of anyone but me!
But we still have plenty of love left leftover for our fans, of course. And we both love being idols, so that's exactly how I'd like to end our time here: with a dazzling show that's sure to raise everyone's spirits up! ✨🎵✨🎵
Even those brainwashed shop clerks need a bit of joy in their lives. Perhaps if they see us onstage, it'll unlock something within them! A memory, or a buried emotion or something like that.
Alright, now I'm really excited! I'm ready to sing, dance, and keep being Jun-kun's dazzling partner forever and ever! 💚♾️💙
[Really. Forever. He means it, he's sure of it!]
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What he typed seems awfully close, and it's not wrong in the least. His heart is often full, filled with thoughts of Hiyori, the same as right now. How can anyone quell the beating of their heart when it's this intense?
Never had he thought he could say (or write) these things, not without a little help, or rather, he was fine going to the grave with these unsurpressed feelings. But now he's had a taste of what they could be, those conflicting feelings have increased ten-fold.
Which, at this point, Ibara will just have to deal with! ]
not just mine, but also yours! and i really mean every word, ohii-san. i've been really trying, you know! but i'm glad you've noticed, cuz you're right, expressing these feelings has been hard! so i'll keep getting better at the trying thing! course no one else'll worm their way in, so don't worry ~
and we'll do that! i'll never forget our fans, or wouldn't wanna give them the love they give us in return~ just means they'll remember our songs, which will be good for anyone here to remember us by. if we can help them, then we'll do it!
[ Instead, the brainwashed workers will be brainwashed by Eve instead! Sounds like the perfect plan. ]
and there's nothing more i'd wanna do with you, ohii-san. and don't forget about getting to do all those things we said together, too.
[ The word forever has many meanings, but ultimately, it's exactly what Jun means by this. If it's forever, even better! ]
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Well, yes, I do deserve credit too. I just assumed that went without saying! I'm the one who helped Jun-kun get better at self-expression. And I have quite a way with words, myself, of course.
Yep! Helping ourselves takes top priority, but I do want to help whoever we can. I want everyone to get home safely and for all the brainwashed people to revert back to normal. And for us to get back to our fans, and for Monika-chan to get back to her "Player," and for Eden to conquer the world! Or at least the industry.
[Brainwashing the staff and the career residents into Eve/Eden fans is absolutely fine. It's not morally dubious at all, it's just natural! ~Our music, only our music~]
Yes, yes, I won't forget! I still have some paper and pens leftover from when I bought all that stuff for my case file, so perhaps I'll make a to-do list! Or, actually, I'll make two lists! One list for things we want to do before leaving this place, and one list for things to do at home! And I can use rhinestones in place of bullet points, since I still have some of those left over, too. How does that sound?
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you sure you're feeling fine? it's not like you to not wanna take credit. well, i'm not gonna lie and say you didn't, ohii-san. pretty obvious you helped, so thanks for that.
[ Most of the anger inside his heart had been quelled or "bleached" out, given Hiyori's sunny disposition. It's a stark contrast how different Jun used to act to now, though. ]
the thing is, i dunno who "needs help" here. but we'll try our best to help unbrainwash those sorta people. and we'll just keep conquering the industry, ohii-san! i still wanna perform overseas in a big arena, so let's make our way home soon!
[ But Hiyori, are you sure you're not the one with an obsession for Monika? He's sure mentioning her a lot! ]
yeah, sure! if you wanna keep all the stuff we wanna do in a file, that'd be good. maybe if our moods get low, we'll look at the list, and it'll give us more motivation! and sounds good to me, ohii-san. we'll just do as much as we can and leave the rest until later.
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[Now that he knows Jun-kun wants to be with him forever and ever, as more than just his singing partner.]
Me too, of course. I'm sure the others feel the same. Especially Ibara, who just loooves "conquests." Perhaps we'll start with that American festival he told us about. The one he took us overseas for! "Absolute," I think it was called.
And then, once we've toured one country, it'll be onto the next one! 🗺️🌎🎶✨ And we'll get to do some sightseeing that way, too!
[Ah, travel is so much fun when it's voluntary. When it's not voluntary, it's just kidnapping!
As for Monika-chan, how could he ever pass up the opportunity to remind Jun that she ~already has a lover~ and is ~happily spoken for~?? (By her own admission, mind you. He didn't make this up!!)]
Now I'm really pumped up! I'll get started on that list just as soon as I'm done with some other stuff.
[A pause. Then he adds, with finality:]
But I think I'd be happy doing just about anything as long as it's with Jun-kun. Almost anything, anyway.
[And then:]
But I still have lots of fun ideas I wouldn't want to miss out on, so it's good that we're on the same page!
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[ And now that Hiyori's accepted, life couldn't be any better. Jun might not be squeezing his pillow tight, he feels optimistic about their future. ]
i'm pretty confident nagi-senpai will keep ibara away from conquests, or just this one. but i know we'll make it over there once we get outta here! and your english was pretty good last time, so i'm gonna keep trusting in your skills ♪
i dunno what other countries we'll go to, but all of them! i hope we'll see all the colosseums one day, and the water city thing!
[ Venice, he's talking about Venice! And thinking about the places they'll go to or even perform at is a lot of fun. But first, they'll need to break out of this silly sex casino and then bug Ibara until Eden's allowed to perform overseas! Sounds like a plan.
Besides, he knows that, and Monika's not the person Jun wants to be with forever and ever! It would never work out, especially when they go their separate ways and live very different lives. (However, he is quite curious who this "player" person is!)]
no rush, ohii-san! i'll look forward to whenever you get started on it.
and on top of that, our circumstances are pretty shitty right now, but i'm gonna be happy with all of it, too.
[ Although uncertain what those things might involve, the future does seem promising. ]
my minds racing with all the things i wanna do with you by my side. guess we're really "two bodies, one soul," or the thing you always say about us.
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And I'm sure Nagisa-kun would love to see the Collosseum! If he hasn't already. I think he might've gone there once before. Back when we were at Yumenosaki, he'd jet off whenever he felt like it. He'd just disappear and then reappear some days later with souvenirs from abroad and some new story to tell about historic sites or archaeological digs. But these days he doesn't really have time in his schedule for that, plus Ibara wouldn't allow it, so we'll just have to travel together!
Then if we're feeling extra ambitious, we could not only consider touring the world, but also other universes! Topaz-chan said that her company manufactures airplanes which can travel between dimensions, so something like that might just be possible. We could become the world's first truly "cosmic" idols!
Though, there's already plenty to see in our world. And the thought of getting stuck between dimensions is a bit disconcerting. So I think I'd be fine without that, too.
[There's a lull between bursts of text as Jun manages to articulate something he's also felt. "Our circumstances are shitty, but I'm happy with all of it" really isn't too far from his own feelings. Of course he isn't happy with everything that's going on, or even most of it. But he's finding himself feeling happy more and more often lately, and he knows it's all because of Jun. It's because he has Jun at his side. He meant it when he said he'd be happy doing almost anything with Jun. And it's the same for Jun, isn't it?
Nothing, not Rinne's disappearance or the forced tattoos or the Springtime game or anything, can completely kill the simple joy of being with his partner. Or the still-more-exhilarating joy of having his secret feelings returned. Some of his usual worries will return later, but right now, he's over the moon. So over the moon, he doesn't even mind when Jun messes up that motto he came up with during Eve's formation!]
Silly Jun-kun. It's one body, two souls! 💚💙 Because we move together onstage as one!
But the way you said it isn't completely wrong. Since it seems our innermost thoughts and feelings are in-sync today, too. Almost like we *are* sharing a soul.
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[ Thinking about one of them falling in would be hilariously funny. And regardless of the name Hiyori chooses, the list will be for them alone. ]
well, nagi-senpai can give us a tour! i knew he'd been overseas, but not over there, so that's pretty cool. that's gotta be where he got all those rocks from ♪
i dunno if i'm feeling *that* ambitious, ohii-san. touring other planets and being in space sounds pretty scary. d'you think we'll see topaz-san again?
[ If so, then it would help. Out of most people he's met here, he enjoys talking to Topaz; she's pretty much the only "normal" person. Well, besides her worth ethic being eerily similar to Ibara's... ]
huh, why'd you go and say that? being stuck in space has gotta be the last thing we should be doing.
[ He's pretty happy touring Earth for now! Even if Ibara might applaud Hiyori's ideas, he's going to staunchly refuse. (Nagi-senpai, please agree space is no place for idols!!!) Despite the freakout of Eden being lost in space, he waits for the next feeling to set in. It's crappy circumstances this happened, but he's happy that they've come to an understanding.
Hiyori's contagious happiness is exactly how he feels, unable to stop the constant smile he's been wearing lately. Having Hiyori by his side has made a few realisations come to fruition, showing just how fortunate he's been, not just in this place, but always with Hiyori around. And without a doubt, the most obvious one has to be how attached Jun's grown. He meant it, too, just how his fondness has grown, blossoming into his feelings having been returned. It may not stay this way forever, but once they get out, perhaps nothing will stop them. No fans, no Ibara, no silly no-dating rule!
The colourful hearts constantly seem to catch him off guard, tugging at his heart for no "apparent" reason other than being their image colours. And he was not a big fan of emojis before meeting Hiyori, but hearts now seem to represent a variety of emotions for them. Don't they?
Phew! He's not been called out on messing up the motto, even though he's heard it numerous times before. ]
close enough~ one body, two souls 💚💙
i'm gonna agree we've been pretty in-sync today, like we're on stage, 'cept we're not! and being honest, i wanna keep being in-sync with you, ohii-san, cuz nothing's gonna make me happier.
[ With each passing day, he's getting closer and closer to understanding how this feels a lot like love. Being open, trying to articulate these feelings will come and go as the realisation eventually settles in. ]
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As for the photoshoot part, I figure we can have a camera crew photographing us from another boat or else from one of the bridges. And then we can also take photographs at all the other sightseeing locations. That should be fun for us and for our fans!
It's definitely considered theft to take parts of the Colosseum home. But I do know he's been on excavations in other countries before. Perhaps one day he'll have a shiny stone from every country on Earth! 💎
Will we see her outside the resort, you mean? Honestly, she sounds rather busy, just like Anzu-chan or Ibara. And it also sounds as though she lives in a completely different dimension from us. But if we do find a way to travel between worlds, then perhaps!
I do agree with you about space, though. I don't like dark, cold and lonely places, so on second thought, let's scratch that.
[Sorry, Ibara. Sorry, CosPro.
... it really is a silly thing. Feeling his heart soar because of some emojis. But he has the softest smile on his face when he sees Jun return them. He couldn't be happier with how things have turned out.]
But even if we did travel to space, we'd still be "one body, two souls." In this world, in another world, in the next life, wherever!
Or at least that's what I'll choose to believe, since that's what would make me happiest, too.
[He knows he's only reiterating Jun's words. And his own. But he'll keep saying shmoopy things like that, revealing his heart bit by bit, until the day he feels he's found the right moment to come right out and state his feelings upfront.
He will be thinking them in his heart, though. "I love Jun-kun."]
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yeah, i'm liking the idea of the photoshoot! now we've not had one for months, i kinda miss getting all sorts of new clothes and posing for the camera. i know it'd be something new, not many idols can say they've done!
[ Heading off to Venice with Eden sounds wonderful, and with a photoshoot to boot? Even more wonderful! Talking about all about the fun and silly things they might do once they leave has felt comforting. ]
huh, how'd you know that? well, here's hoping nagi-senpai didn't take anything! yeah, i think he's gotta be close, cuz he's already got a buncha cool rocks.
hmm, yeah, i guess it'd be tricky with different dimensions. maybe we'll be the first to figure it out! and that's what i'm thinking. i'm pretty sure space ships have got heating, but you're right about the lonely part.
[ Rip Ibara and CosPro!
The emojis feel as if it's their thing, whatever that means! He's filled with warmth, causing a broad grin to spread across his face. It's the kind of feeling that would make you want to relax on the bed, grinning at your phone (or, in this instance, watch), and scream into a pillow. This is exactly how Jun feels at the moment, as if he were some lovestruck teenager!
Having Hiyori reiterate the same fills him with excitement. He's never, ever felt this way about someone, but here those words are in text! And if Jun's ever having a bad day, he'll open his watch and re-read the shmoopy texts the two have been sending, and all will be right in the world. ]
it's good we want the same thing, ohii-san. we've sorta reached another understanding, haven't we? i mean, about us!
and i'm really happy, ohii-san.
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Yep, of course Jun-kun would prioritize me over getting water in his shoes! That's how things are, and that's how they should be!
I know I've already suggested different this, but we can always try on clothes and take some photos here, by the way. It won't be nearly the same as a real photoshoot, but we'll want to do that anyway so we can figure out what to wear for our shuffle performance!
[Whenever... that happens.]
It's just obvious, since that's a historical landmark. It'd be sort of like trying to take ancient artwork home from a museum. Though I wonder if that's what our captors have done, since some of the art pieces in the elevators look eerily similar to famous works. If they're just reproductions, then they're rather skilled ones.
Someone suggested that we could be in space here, for all we know. They've cut off any way to view the outside world, after all. I didn't really buy that, though, since I don't feel the slightest bit weightless here.
[It was Atsushi who shared that idea.
Also, the last part might just be a lie. Because every time Jun reaffirms his feelings for him, he does feel like he's floating on up to cloud nine. Like now, for instance.
There's a lot weighing on him in this place. A constant heaviness sitting in his chest, threatening to sink his heart like a stone. But that feeling is gone now. As long as he has Jun-kun...]
I don't feel too heavy anymore, either, though. And that's because of you, I'm sure. And because of that understanding that we reached.
Thanks, Jun-kun.
💚
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yeah, i'd probably not think about it and dive right in. can't really have anything happen to my partner ~
and i wanna do that, so we just gotta find time! good thing my schedules pretty open these days. but looking for our shuffle outfits would be a good start, but i'd been sorta hoping maybe we could still look for some outfits. y'know, just for us...?
[ But it's just, well, he wants to see Hiyori in cute clothes! And not just cute clothes for their shuffle unit. Also his vague ass answer, wishing he could come right out and say exactly what he wants. ]
how'd i know that? i don't know much about the world, ohii-san, or paintings. but, hmm, you think those're the real deal? maybe next time we're in one, i'll take a better look.
well, it sorta makes sense cuz we've got no fresh air or sunlight. and there's gotta be none of that out in space, just darkness and stars. feeling weightless could be a myth, couldn't it?? maybe that's what they want you to think.
[ We need mythbusters out here!! Wow, Atsushi seems to be filled with knowledge.
Personally, he's not too sure about feeling weightless. Here, in this place, there's often an uneasiness weighing in the air, mostly from the Game 52 nonsense. But the feeling subsides whenever he's near Hiyori, whenever he's talking to Hiyori, and whenever he's thinking about Hiyori.
Needless to say, Jun's in Deep.
And deeper in, whenever Hiyori's transparent with him, talking about their feelings, his heart flips again at the green heart. ]
you were feeling heavy, ohii-san? if you're ever feeling heavy again, just let me know! cuz i'd do anything to take away the feeling, y'know? ♪ i'm gonna make sure there's never any confusion between us again.
and you're welcome, ohii-san.
💙
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[Though they'd probably just use a stunt double.]
Just for us, hmm?
[He's not sure whether Jun is talking about new stage costumes, or about their plans to try on cute dresses at some point, or what. But either way:]
That sounds wonderful to me! You already know this, but I love shopping, so I don't mind if we go on multiple trips. One trip for shuffle unit costumes, one trip for cute outfits, and a third trip for more matching clothes! 👯🛍️
[They'll be shopping for matching outfits for Weiss's party next month, anyway. And he and Weiss will also be looking at shuffle costumes.]
Perhaps we can investigate the brushstrokes with a magnifying glass. I'm sort of like a detective here, so it's probably time I got one of those. I do try to avoid riding the elevators with others, since there are those weird talking portraits in there, but I suppose it's fine if it's just with Jun-kun.
I don't think the laws of gravity are a myth... But this place seems to run on magic, so anything is possible, I guess. For example
[He pauses.
Does he really want to say that? But they've already said so much, Jun included. So it should be fine.]
I sometimes feel like I'm floating in zero gravity when I'm talking to Jun-kun!
Or when you touch me.
Anyway, talk to you later! 💚
[And then he tabs out of the conversation before he can see Jun's reply, flopping his head down on his pillow again.
... he'll check again in a minute. Or a few minutes. But for now, he'll just lie down and wait for his heart to return to normal, a smile still lingering on his lips after all the sweet things Jun said to him.]
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Honestly, most of the texts read innocuous enough, with Jun suspecting nothing until reaching the last line.
Hiyori feels like he's floating in zero gravity, not only when they talk, but also when he touches him.
The text has his cheeks flushing, re-reading the words over and over for a good couple of minutes before finding a proper response. Also with a few backspaces, the '...' lingering for another couple of minutes as he's crafting his response. ]
hey, you can't go running off after telling me that, y'know?
cuz i'm telling you right now i feel the same way! when you touch me, it's overwhelming, like you've only got eyes for me. but sometimes my heart pounds hard i seriously think it's gonna burst outta my chest.
and on top of that, you're always in my head! so i just wanna let you know you're someone i think about. a lot.
so whenever you read my text, just know it's sorta embarrassing admitting how you're always there. always on my mind and just there, right where you belong. 💚💙
[ He'll also tab out for the time being, needing to calm his racing heart. There are plenty more words he could sum up, how he feels most of the time and more! But a point has been made, Hiyori does occupy his mind (and heart) nearly all the time. ]
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He can't resist checking after a few minutes, though. And when he does check, it's another shot straight to the heart. More sweet, passionate words, typed just for him, and to top it all off, Jun saw right through him. "Like you've only got eyes for me," Jun said. And it's true, he does.
"That's because I do have eyes only for you," he considers writing. But he stops himself. He's shared enough of his heart today. Almost his entire heart. He's exhausted! Though in a good way, akin to the tired exhilaration he feels after giving it his all onstage.
He goes back to curling up in bed. In the end he doesn't send anything, but that's fine. He and Jun are never apart for long, and when they see each other for dinner later. There are no more mushy heart-to-hearts, at least not for now, but when he smiles at Jun across the table, there's something soft and knowing in his eyes. And he thinks he can see his own feelings reflected back.
In other words: a new lovey-dovey saga in his life has begun. Golden Peacock doujin authors, get your pens ready...!]