[Yep, they've talked about this. Hiyori assumed Jun was making fun of him when he first heard the nicknamed. Maybe he was. Maybe he still is. But now that things are more certain between them now, more intimate, it feels more like a term of endearment than ever. Like a name he wants to wear with pride.
Even if he can't resist returning Jun's teasing.]
You know calling me "princess" takes on a completely different meaning now that we're lovers, right?
[He draws out the L-word as part of their teasing.]
It's like Jun-kun's saying he wants to be my prince! Or perhaps my knight in shining armor. Is that why you've been acting so smooth lately? ♪
[His smirk grows more pronounced. But then he admits:]
It's a bit ironic, when I'm the one who's more prince-like onstage. I'm sure all our fans would agree! But I guess I don't mind if Jun-kun wants to slay dragons for me. Having someone like that around is useful ♪
[But even if Jun fails to be useful, he still won't throw him away.
... even though he threatened to in the beginning.
This is the closest he's ever come to apologizing for that, or for some of his other nastiness. Jun's pointed out that he has a bad personality before. And it's not like he disagrees, despite his ego. There are things you don't say, things you don't do, when you're part of a noble family. His upbringing was strict. He was taught good manners. He worked hard to repress all the ugly thoughts he had. Then it was like a dam burst, and as soon as he was out of his family's reach, he just couldn't stop voicing them. But that's fine, right? He's someone important, so he can treat those beneath him however he wants.
Or so he thought, but that sort of self-serving attitude isn't really any different from the one Tatsumi was fighting, is it? The one that made Jun-kun's life miserable.
It's odd and uncomfortable. Feeling this pang of guilt over something he didn't used to feel bad about. But Jun doesn't see a problem. Jun smiles at him earnestly and tells him he's a good person. Because he "accepted him." As though that was some huge hardship.
But it makes sense for Jun to see him that way. As the kind-hearted savior Hiyori positioned himself as. Jun doesn't know what he was like before they met. What he and Eichi-kun did to the "Five Oddballs."
... Or what he did with Eichi's money.
That's not even something he normally feels bad about: using money to woo girls he'd forget by the morning. It's not like he hurt anyone. They were using him, too, of course. But it's something he's been forced to reflect on, thanks to this place. When he thinks about it now, he's not exactly proud of himself. He'd be embarrassed if Jun found out. But of course Jun doesn't know about that, either.
There's no two ways about it. He was pretty unpleasant back then. Still...
He was given a second chance, in the form of the person sitting next to him. A chance to start over from the bottom and become someone different. Which he did. And isn't that worth cherishing? Jun wasn't put off by his bad personality—he's happy to put up with him forever. That makes Hiyori very fortunate. And he would rather celebrate his good fortune than linger on the past, so that's exactly what he'll do.]
Well, I haven't been stabbed yet. Even though, as Jun-kun said, I have that personality.
[He smirks again, remembering what Jun said in the past.]
So, since I've still got a thousand lifetimes left to live, I'll just work extra hard to cherish Jun-kun during all those years. That should more than make up for all the rude things I've said!
[He reaches for both of Jun's hands this time. There will definitely be more rude words; he's himself, after all. But no more threats of abandonment or jokes about throwing Jun away. That's what he quietly decides.
And it's not like he was kidding about cherishing Jun, either. Because, as he says next:]
Jun-kun was kind enough to accept me with his whole heart. So the least I can do, as his partner, is to accept every last bit of him.
[He squeezes Jun's hands.]
Okay? ♪
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[ Maybe now it means something more. At the start it wasn’t, only a nickname to poke fun. But hasn’t it turned into more of a term of endearment? Hiyori’s still the same selfish, needy princess who has a hold on him. Subconsciously, Jun knows he’s been endeared from the moment they met.
Does it? He’s not too sure it can take on another meaning. Especially when said by the person who never even knew Jun was poking fun at him. Even with the teasing, he shakes his head. ]
Well, I’m not tryna say I wanna be a prince. Maybe I’m better off suited sticking to what I already know. ‘Sides I dunno what you’re talking ‘bout! I’m not acting “smooth.” I wanna be a good boyfriend ♪ or lover, partner and whatever else you wanna call us.
[ Seeing that for yourself is something he hasn’t quite seen. What does acting smooth mean? Jun doesn’t think he’s been acting any different, considering the relationship between them isn’t any different than how they’d act back home. (Except now they hold hands, kiss and do other acts in the comfort of their bed.) ]
“Prince-like”? Ohii-san, I’m sorry to say you don’t act like that at all. [ He doesn’t sound sorry about it. ] If that’s what you want ♪ It’ll be like a video game where I save you from a burning castle! But the reason it’s burning is ‘cause of the dragon. ‘Course I’m useful! You’re still a shitty noble who can’t do anything in his own!
[ Yeah, you gave him this idea Hiyori! And he’s teasing about the last part, knowing Hiyori is capable of doing things on his own, but he sure doesn’t act like he can.
The silence between them lingers, not as if it’s uncomfortable. There’s some things you don’t ask, and that’s what matters most. The self-serving attitude of his hasn’t changed, though Jun realises now part of Hiyori has changed. Even Jun himself has! But it doesn’t make sense for him to pry into the life Hiyori led in Yumenosaki. Sure, he’s curiously been wanting to know! Most of all, he’s curious about why anyone would want to come from that school into the hell that was once Reimei.
… not that he knows anything about the War or anything else. Jun had been fighting his own battles, with Tatsumi-senpai leading the fight. Would he still like Hiyori if he knew the truth? That Hiyori was the sort of person with the same attitude they were fighting against? Perhaps it’s better not to know.
Besides, Jun hadn’t pictured Hiyori as a saviour type. Even if he was “saved” by the very same person. In all seriousness, wasn’t it Tatsumi-senpai who saved Jun first? Talking to his senpai, no matter how brief it may have been, no matter if Tatsumi doesn’t believe he was able to save himself… Without his guidance, Jun would not have survived. (Not that he knows Kaname spoke to the Specials, also wanting to keep Jun out of trouble.)
It’s easier to think about Tatsumi, who is still there, who talks to Jun about regrets and recalls their time together as friends. Kaname? Not so much. He can’t place a finger on it. And figure out why HiMERU won’t acknowledge him, or rather, pretends as if their time at Reimei was nonexistent.
Would he fault Hiyori for spending money on girls to fill some time and void in his life? Wouldn’t that be hypocritical of him to do? Hiyori was unpleasant, rude and got on his nerves constantly. But he grew to love the last person he ever thought he could.
And for that reason alone makes how they came together worth all the hardships. ]
Well, I’m still pretty impressed! I bet there’s a buncha people out there you’ve annoyed with that sorta personality of yours!
[ It’s been so long since Jun said that he almost forgot. The offer still stands, even as Hiyori reaches for his hands. The feeling is warm, different from the conversation they had only a couple of minutes ago. One day Jun might spill more, really delve deeper into his psyche, but for now he’s content. ]
Saying something like that doesn’t make it any better. I don’t really think much ‘bout what you said back then… I’ve moved on, ‘cause I wouldn’t be here if you seriously meant what you said.
[ Isn’t that right? Hiyori could have thrown him away, abandoned him when he needed his partner most. Still, he didn’t do that. When Jun was at his lowest ready to take on Jin, Hiyori was there acting as a shining light in the dirty, dingy alley he thought he inhabited. Now their life together couldn’t be any different. ]
You’re still gonna be rude sometimes, but it’s part of your personality that makes you Ohii-san. My Ohii-san, the one I’m gonna cherish forever! Who’ll always be there in my heart ♪
[ He squeezes back, smiling for the first time in a while. ]
Okay! I’m not forcing you to accept all of me, just if you wanna.
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Even if he can't resist returning Jun's teasing.]
You know calling me "princess" takes on a completely different meaning now that we're lovers, right?
[He draws out the L-word as part of their teasing.]
It's like Jun-kun's saying he wants to be my prince! Or perhaps my knight in shining armor. Is that why you've been acting so smooth lately? ♪
[His smirk grows more pronounced. But then he admits:]
It's a bit ironic, when I'm the one who's more prince-like onstage. I'm sure all our fans would agree! But I guess I don't mind if Jun-kun wants to slay dragons for me. Having someone like that around is useful ♪
[But even if Jun fails to be useful, he still won't throw him away.
... even though he threatened to in the beginning.
This is the closest he's ever come to apologizing for that, or for some of his other nastiness. Jun's pointed out that he has a bad personality before. And it's not like he disagrees, despite his ego. There are things you don't say, things you don't do, when you're part of a noble family. His upbringing was strict. He was taught good manners. He worked hard to repress all the ugly thoughts he had. Then it was like a dam burst, and as soon as he was out of his family's reach, he just couldn't stop voicing them. But that's fine, right? He's someone important, so he can treat those beneath him however he wants.
Or so he thought, but that sort of self-serving attitude isn't really any different from the one Tatsumi was fighting, is it? The one that made Jun-kun's life miserable.
It's odd and uncomfortable. Feeling this pang of guilt over something he didn't used to feel bad about. But Jun doesn't see a problem. Jun smiles at him earnestly and tells him he's a good person. Because he "accepted him." As though that was some huge hardship.
But it makes sense for Jun to see him that way. As the kind-hearted savior Hiyori positioned himself as. Jun doesn't know what he was like before they met. What he and Eichi-kun did to the "Five Oddballs."
... Or what he did with Eichi's money.
That's not even something he normally feels bad about: using money to woo girls he'd forget by the morning. It's not like he hurt anyone. They were using him, too, of course. But it's something he's been forced to reflect on, thanks to this place. When he thinks about it now, he's not exactly proud of himself. He'd be embarrassed if Jun found out. But of course Jun doesn't know about that, either.
There's no two ways about it. He was pretty unpleasant back then. Still...
He was given a second chance, in the form of the person sitting next to him. A chance to start over from the bottom and become someone different. Which he did. And isn't that worth cherishing? Jun wasn't put off by his bad personality—he's happy to put up with him forever. That makes Hiyori very fortunate. And he would rather celebrate his good fortune than linger on the past, so that's exactly what he'll do.]
Well, I haven't been stabbed yet. Even though, as Jun-kun said, I have that personality.
[He smirks again, remembering what Jun said in the past.]
So, since I've still got a thousand lifetimes left to live, I'll just work extra hard to cherish Jun-kun during all those years. That should more than make up for all the rude things I've said!
[He reaches for both of Jun's hands this time. There will definitely be more rude words; he's himself, after all. But no more threats of abandonment or jokes about throwing Jun away. That's what he quietly decides.
And it's not like he was kidding about cherishing Jun, either. Because, as he says next:]
Jun-kun was kind enough to accept me with his whole heart. So the least I can do, as his partner, is to accept every last bit of him.
[He squeezes Jun's hands.]
Okay? ♪
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Does it? He’s not too sure it can take on another meaning. Especially when said by the person who never even knew Jun was poking fun at him. Even with the teasing, he shakes his head. ]
Well, I’m not tryna say I wanna be a prince. Maybe I’m better off suited sticking to what I already know. ‘Sides I dunno what you’re talking ‘bout! I’m not acting “smooth.” I wanna be a good boyfriend ♪ or lover, partner and whatever else you wanna call us.
[ Seeing that for yourself is something he hasn’t quite seen. What does acting smooth mean? Jun doesn’t think he’s been acting any different, considering the relationship between them isn’t any different than how they’d act back home. (Except now they hold hands, kiss and do other acts in the comfort of their bed.) ]
“Prince-like”? Ohii-san, I’m sorry to say you don’t act like that at all. [ He doesn’t sound sorry about it. ] If that’s what you want ♪ It’ll be like a video game where I save you from a burning castle! But the reason it’s burning is ‘cause of the dragon. ‘Course I’m useful! You’re still a shitty noble who can’t do anything in his own!
[ Yeah, you gave him this idea Hiyori! And he’s teasing about the last part, knowing Hiyori is capable of doing things on his own, but he sure doesn’t act like he can.
The silence between them lingers, not as if it’s uncomfortable. There’s some things you don’t ask, and that’s what matters most. The self-serving attitude of his hasn’t changed, though Jun realises now part of Hiyori has changed. Even Jun himself has! But it doesn’t make sense for him to pry into the life Hiyori led in Yumenosaki. Sure, he’s curiously been wanting to know! Most of all, he’s curious about why anyone would want to come from that school into the hell that was once Reimei.
… not that he knows anything about the War or anything else. Jun had been fighting his own battles, with Tatsumi-senpai leading the fight. Would he still like Hiyori if he knew the truth? That Hiyori was the sort of person with the same attitude they were fighting against? Perhaps it’s better not to know.
Besides, Jun hadn’t pictured Hiyori as a saviour type. Even if he was “saved” by the very same person. In all seriousness, wasn’t it Tatsumi-senpai who saved Jun first? Talking to his senpai, no matter how brief it may have been, no matter if Tatsumi doesn’t believe he was able to save himself… Without his guidance, Jun would not have survived. (Not that he knows Kaname spoke to the Specials, also wanting to keep Jun out of trouble.)
It’s easier to think about Tatsumi, who is still there, who talks to Jun about regrets and recalls their time together as friends. Kaname? Not so much. He can’t place a finger on it. And figure out why HiMERU won’t acknowledge him, or rather, pretends as if their time at Reimei was nonexistent.
Would he fault Hiyori for spending money on girls to fill some time and void in his life? Wouldn’t that be hypocritical of him to do? Hiyori was unpleasant, rude and got on his nerves constantly. But he grew to love the last person he ever thought he could.
And for that reason alone makes how they came together worth all the hardships. ]
Well, I’m still pretty impressed! I bet there’s a buncha people out there you’ve annoyed with that sorta personality of yours!
[ It’s been so long since Jun said that he almost forgot. The offer still stands, even as Hiyori reaches for his hands. The feeling is warm, different from the conversation they had only a couple of minutes ago. One day Jun might spill more, really delve deeper into his psyche, but for now he’s content. ]
Saying something like that doesn’t make it any better. I don’t really think much ‘bout what you said back then… I’ve moved on, ‘cause I wouldn’t be here if you seriously meant what you said.
[ Isn’t that right? Hiyori could have thrown him away, abandoned him when he needed his partner most. Still, he didn’t do that. When Jun was at his lowest ready to take on Jin, Hiyori was there acting as a shining light in the dirty, dingy alley he thought he inhabited. Now their life together couldn’t be any different. ]
You’re still gonna be rude sometimes, but it’s part of your personality that makes you Ohii-san. My Ohii-san, the one I’m gonna cherish forever! Who’ll always be there in my heart ♪
[ He squeezes back, smiling for the first time in a while. ]
Okay! I’m not forcing you to accept all of me, just if you wanna.