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sazanami jun ([personal profile] blundering) wrote2024-03-03 10:46 am
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-02 03:56 am (UTC)(link)
[It's an ordinary evening. Christmas and New Year's both came and went, the festivities are over, and there hasn't been a proper "game" in several months, which gives Hiyori time to think about various things.

Including a certain conversation he had.
]

Say, Jun-kun...

[He rests his teacup in his lap, turning to look at Jun on the sofa in their shared suite.]

How do you feel about slumber parties?
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-02 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[... yep. Given what sort of childhood Jun had, it's no surprise he didn't have sleepovers! Though as Hiyori admits:]

I never had any, either. Those don't seem all that common in noble households. Unless you count the nights I spent with Nagisa-kun while he lived under our roof—then every night was a slumber party! ♪

[He smiles. Ah, memories.]

But to answer your question, I was chatting with one of our mutual friends, and he said he'd like one. A slumber party with both of us! Or rather, with Eve! So, I thought I'd get your opinion on that idea.

[He takes care to say all of this casually. Though he's definitely leaving out some context...]
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-07 01:09 am (UTC)(link)
Hm?

[Hiyori glances at him in surprise, cheeks coloring a bit. The stuff they do every night? That stuff?! ... oh, he just means sharing a bed together. Of course. ... Ahem.]

I'd say that's more like "living together." But I guess Nagisa-kun and I were also living together, so if that counts...

[Of course, the relationship he had with Nagisa as children is absolutely nothing like the one he currently shares with Jun. But that goes without saying.

What doesn't go without saying is what kind of "slumber party" he's talking about. Back home, there'd be no reason to wonder. They were idols, after all, and Jun even had a totally innocent sleepover on TV once. But in this place, "sleeping over" with someone has a very different connotation. Jun is right to ask which kind he's talking about. And the answer to that is...

Well, actually, Jun seems to work out the answer for himself. Hiyori blinks at that, surprised all over again; he didn't expect Jun to catch on so fast, or for him to start singing! But isn't it a relief that they're on the same page (almost)? Hiyori pauses for a second, then nods.
]

Jun-kun's catching on quicker these days. Good job! ♪

[A bit of praise for him!

But after a moment, he adds:
]

I don't know for sure if that's what he had in mind, but it's sort of the vibe I've gotten from him. Not just towards me, but also towards you. In fact, I'm pretty sure you're his favorite. ... Leona-kun's, that is.
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-08 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
[He sucks in a cheek, pouting a bit at Jun's teasing. Jun-kun is so cheeky these days. But he isn't truly mad, as being called "cute" isn't bad at all. He is cute, and so is Jun. They both have plenty of appeal, which is why it's almost a little sad that Jun can't seem to see it.]

You know you had fans at home too, right? I'm sure at least some of our fans would name you as their "favorite." Just as many of our them love me best, while others favor Nagisa-kun! And Ibara might have some fans, too, I guess.

[He guesses.

But that's idol talk. This is something different; they've never had a sleepover with fans. That's just a fantasy confined to song lyrics and fans' daydreams. Still, calling Leona a "fan" isn't wrong. He remembers talking to him about Jun, back when he woke up in Leona's bathtub (long story). Leona said he was a fan, and Jun deserves to know it! Sorry, but Hiyori's about to tattle on him!
]

As for Leona-kun, though, there's no mystery. Because he said—

[Ah, but wait.

He blinks at Jun as those last words sink in. Jun got a "vibe" off him already? During the "String mess"?
]

... you mean the Hearts game? What happened there, exactly?

[His tone is inquisitive, not suspicious. He isn't worried about "cheating" or anything! ... but he is quite curious.]
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-22 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
True, I do like being loved! But who among us doesn't?

[It's the goal of every idol to find fans who love them. Even if they're happy to see their unitmates succeed, and even if they double as a producer like Ibara does or a composer like Leo, they probably still crave having fans who consider them a "favorite."]

And whenever you gain fans, it makes me feel pleased as the senior who raised you. Which is what you'd call a happiness circle~♪

[Happiness, not jealousy. He sincerely wants Jun to be recognized.

Though that's a little different from wanting Jun to be loved "that" way. Jun looks and sounds a tad awkward as he explains what occurred between himself and Leona during the Hearts game, which apparently involved them "reciting romantic lines" to each other. Jun doesn't reveal what romantic lines he recited, but Leona's apparently involved him understanding why Jun was popular, and... wanting to take Jun home with him? Why, Hiyori never! It raises his hackles right up!

... or at least it would normally. But for some reason, he finds that it doesn't this time. Maybe Jun's abashed demeanor has something to do with it. Or maybe it's because he understands the Hearts game was just a game. He himself had to act out a romantic scene to get rid of one of his strings. He doesn't honestly believe Leona would snatch Jun away to his world, so he knows there's nothing to be anxious about. Although... just because Leona had to act interested in Jun to get the string off doesn't mean his interest was completely false, does it?

But first thing's first.
]

So it was like that, was it?

[He smiles, trying to be reassuring. He's not upset or jealous, and he doesn't want Jun to be nervous.]

I probably already mentioned, but I had to do something similar with Hilda-chan. We made up two characters and acted out a scene together, complete with costumes, to get rid of our string. It was basically an acting challenge.

[A very silly one. It was a "love scene" so exaggerated Jun has no reason to feel jealous. Hiyori hardly knew Hilda at that point, and she definitely didn't have feelings for him. Probably wasn't particularly attracted to him, either. But with Leona, well...

Hiyori thinks back to that conversation in Leona's bathroom again. Thinks back to their texting conversations, too. And he decides, yep—it's time to rat Leona out!
]

But as for Leona-kun being your fan, I know that's true, since he said so himself. He said, "You could say I'm a fan." And then he also said, "He's got a lot of potential." Which makes sense, I suppose, since lions and hyenas have some things in common. They're both carnivores, and they both roam the savannah! ♪

[He smiles like he's proud of himself for making this absurd comparison. And then he adds, casually:]

But he's said some stuff about me, too. Like that I look good, and that he wants to cuddle me. Which is exactly why I thought he might enjoy a sleepover with both of us.
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-04-25 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Whyever wouldn't I be? I know what that string game required.

[He says matter-of-factly, like he's always been perfectly reasonable about this stuff.

... even though he knows he hasn't been.

In the beginning, he was intensely jealous. He was territorial, possessive, and—though he's reluctant to admit it—he was insecure, too. He'd been worried Jun would get snatched away under his nose; worried Jun would find someone who's more special to him, more lovable, less exhausting and less "difficult." As a result of those fears, he pulled out all the stops to keep Jun to himself: telling him they mustn't participate in Game 52, insisting on holing up together during the Springtime game... not to mention the way he treated Monika.

Faced with a girl who transparently wanted to sleep with Jun, Hiyori behaved badly. He was rude to her, he insulted her repeatedly, and he used underhanded tactics to try and push her away from Jun. Stuff like inviting other people to her "private lesson" with Jun, and trying to hook her up with Leo. In retrospect, he feels bad about the things he said to her, harsh words borne from fear and jealousy. She could be rather rude herself, but she was just an insecure girl looking for love. Someone who'd apparently been alone most of her life. But now she's gone: turned into a statue, presumably, her dream of finding love destroyed. At least for now, but possibly forever. He should've been kind to her, but he wasn't; he was too fearful of Jun being snatched away.

So what exactly changed? Why doesn't the same fear still grip his heart? He used to be afraid they'd end up like Steve and Victoria; where has that fear gone?

It's not that he's any more amenable to Jun being "stolen." If Jun forgot all about their love or announced that he was leaving him for someone else, he'd be devastated. If Jun didn't return one night, and then it turned out he was warming someone else's bed, Hiyori would be upset. But those aren't things he worries much about, despite the resort being the resort. And the reason for that is because...

Well. Because he trusts Jun. Doesn't he?

He trusts Jun meant it when he said he wanted to be together. He trusts that Jun was serious about their "vows," that his love for him is real. This whole time, Jun's been faithful, after all. Despite all the temptations surrounding him, he hasn't taken advantage of them. They had their resort marriage during the Strings game, and thanks to Hua Cheng, they're bound by the "red string of fate." Hiyori didn't have to force any of that: Jun made those vows and wrapped that string around his finger willingly. Which means what, exactly?

That for just one night, it shouldn't be a problem if they invite someone else into their world. Should it?

Maybe he's not 100% positive. It would be one thing if Leona just watched, but could he accept seeing someone else put their hands on Jun's body? It's a tough one to be sure! But he's also not sure yet if that's what Jun would want, so for the time being, they can continue talking about it!
]

If he wanted to keep it a secret, he should've been more subtle about it. Nothing gets by me! ♪

[He says with a smile. But underneath that smile, he's watching Jun closely. Rather than seeming jealous or uncertain, Jun looks intrigued to hear more. More about Leona finding him appealing. And that's, well... that's something of a surprise. Maybe he really was serious about not being the jealous type? Maybe it's just been Hiyori all along? Or, maybe, just maybe, this is different: when it's someone they both know, who wants both of them rather than just one.]

Well, other than saying I look good, you know how I offered to show him my "Aura" thing, right? I did that by cuddling him on our couch briefly. He agreed to it, but he sort of threw me off when he said "I want you." Imagine hearing that from a man out of nowhere. But it turned out he was saying, "I want to cuddle you!"

[He thinks back on those two convos, shaking his head to himself with a wry smile as he remembers all the freaking out he did internally. He jumped to a lot of conclusions!

All the same, were those conclusions really wrong? He looks at Jun somewhat cautiously after hearing that last question, wanting to know his thoughts, determined not to jump to conclusions this time.
]

But I do think he would enjoy more than that, whether it's a "private show" or something else. So I guess it depends on what we'd like to do for him. We could invite him into our world as an audience member and show him a lovely dream, if that's alright with you. But as for "audience participation," well... I guess that depends on how we feel about it in the moment.
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-05-03 04:39 am (UTC)(link)
Am I?

[He thinks about that for a second. Has he lied to Jun or kept anything from him recently? There might be things they haven't talked much about, but he doesn't feel like he has true "secrets."]

It might just be that you've gotten better at reading me. I know we were already "two souls in one" back home, but I do think living together in such close quarters for such a long time has brought us even closer. Not to mention all our other intimacies.

[In truth, he hasn't always been forthcoming. He didn't tell Jun what the wing on his suit tattoo symbolized. Because, well, he didn't want to tell him. Didn't tell him what he heard from Jin Mingming, either, until it gave him a nightmare and he woke up clinging to Jun and crying. After that, he did confess what he was worried about, and they had their first conversation about potentially bringing other people into their sex life: a discussion that led them to the one they're having now.

It's been a long and difficult road towards that kind of honesty. But he can at least say there's nothing he's keeping from Jun on purpose nowadays. He wants them to be on the same page—not just as lovers or as unitmates, but as partners. It's important to talk things out properly, which is why it's a good thing they're doing so right now! Although...

It is a tad embarrassing. To talk honestly about what they should do in front of Leona. He's thought about it a bit already, but his cheeks color a smidgen as he thinks about it some more now. He's the one who brought it up, though, so.
]

If Jun-kun is "game," then I'm game, too! ♪

[He chirps the words back easily.]

... but as for what we should do together, and whether he should join, well... [Pause.] If we want to make his dreams come true, then it might make sense to ask what he wants to see. Though as you said, that may be a bit awkward. It's possible he'll be utterly speechless, in which case we'll have to decide ourselves! So, well...

[He taps his chin as he thinks. The job of an idol is to answer their fans' expectations. This isn't idol work, but it is a show, and Leona is a self-admitted fan of Jun. So if they could just figure out Leona's desires...]

This is just a guess, but since he likes your drive and your "potential," maybe he wants to see you take charge? And he is a lion, so maybe he'd be interested in seeing your "animal" side. Like the way you use your teeth, or that fierce gleam you get in your eyes sometimes.

[His cheeks color further. Yep, he's still not great at talking about sex in explicit detail. But he's trying!]

As for me, I guess I could try to play up my "cute" side. And then, well... after we've made each other feel good, we could help him out if he's gotten excited from it. And just as a special reward, I might be willing to let him touch you, since he's such a big fan. But only if that's what Jun-kun also wants.

[He says this in the tone of someone who's generously offering to lend someone an expensive heirloom.]
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[personal profile] tfy 2025-05-27 02:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He nods, lips tugging upwards into a small smile.]

It makes sense, doesn't it? This little room is our "world of two," after all.

[In a way, it's sad how much their world has narrowed down. Without Nagisa, Ibara or their other friends, they've only had each other to rely on. But he smiles anyway, even through the sadness, because it is nice to feel like they've gotten closer to each other's hearts. Like they really are "two souls in one." There are no more secrets between them, and that includes his love for Jun: it's open and obvious, showing in the way he smiles warmly, his gaze hopelessly soft and affectionate.

Though his warm and fuzzy feelings don't stop him from teasing Jun as usual. They never do.
]

Mhm. That's exactly right! Jun-kun already understands me a lot, but he can always work harder to understand me even more! ♪

[As though the work only needs to be done on Jun's side...

He doesn't say it, but he does want to understand Jun's feelings too. Understand them and accept them, even when they disagree. So, he's curious to know what Jun wants from all this, along with what he doesn't want. Whatever Jun says, he'll do his best to accommodate it, whether that means letting Leona touch Jun or keeping certain things off-limits.

But then he's not being very forthcoming about his own wants, is he? Jun calls him out on that, asking "Is this you telling me what you want~?" and Hiyori bites his lip, his blush blooming brighter on his cheeks. Jun is right, of course. He does want to give their special guest a pleasant dream. But by making this all about what Leona wants, it's a way to avoid admitting what he wants.

... or maybe a way of secretly indulging what he wants, without having to admit that's what he's doing. Jun called him out on that, too, just now.

There's no need for secrecy. The person standing in front of him is Jun-kun: his partner through thick and thin, who won't ever abandon him. Even if he confessed to all his most embarrassing desires and fantasies, Jun-kun wouldn't reject him. Would he? No, of course he wouldn't. His selfishness, his exhausting tendencies, his possessive thoughts: Jun-kun knows about all those things and accepted him anyway.

He takes a breath and admits the truth.
]

You're not wrong. I like seeing your wild side, too. It makes me feel proud as the one who "tamed" you. But I also like that there's a side of you that can't be tamed. And when Jun-kun leaves marks, well...

[His eyes shift away for a second.]

You already belong to me, of course. But when you do that, it feels like I belong to you, too. And I like how that feels.

[... he glances back at Jun. His face really feels like it's burning up now, but that's the price of honesty.]

I like when you're sweet and gentle, too, though! And that you always listen and do your best. But since Leona-kun's your fan, I thought it might be nice to show off your "cool" side in front of him. Although...

[He tilts his head, thinking about it some more.]

If he's a true fan, maybe he likes all your different sides. And if that case, it probably wouldn't hurt to show him a well-rounded version of you. And if Jun-kun likes being told what to do, I wouldn't want to deny you that pleasure, either.

[Here he smiles again: he's back in his comfort zone, teasing Jun. And he realizes this discussion isn't too uncomfortable. There's nothing to be afraid of. Even if he and Jun let someone else touch them, they'll still be together, right?]

You really are good at being considerate.

[Saying he wouldn't want to be touched if Hiyori doesn't want it. Hiyori thinks about it for a second, and then he nods.]

Alright. I've made a decision! Just for one night, I'm fine with Leona-kun putting his big, strong hands on us. Although I do want to make one thing clear: just because he's bigger than us, he's a prince, and he's a lion doesn't mean he can overtake us. All those things might be true, but it's also true that there's one of him and two of us! Which means we might be able to overwhelm him, no? That's what I meant by leaving him "speechless."