[He smiles triumphantly when Jun says he'll consider staying in bed longer.]
Nope, it shouldn't hurt at all. The extra sleep might even leave you feeling refreshed and ready to start your next workout~♪
[He won't ask Jun to sleep in with him every morning. Even Hiyori isn't that demanding. But staying in bed together slightly more often would be nice. And it'd give Jun plenty of time to admire his sleeping face!
It'd be nicer than the conversation they're currently having, anyway. That's for sure.
Jun is visibly struggling to wrap his head around things, which Hiyori can't fault him for. He's had more time to think about this than Jun has, turning the "loophole" over in his mind even as he put off discussing things. But here they are, finally talking, and now there's no hiding from all that the idea entails. Yes, he's talking about the stuff they do in private, and yes, they'd get in horrendous amounts of trouble if word ever got out at home. He wants to think the resort exists in its own separate world, that their actions here won't come back to haunt them later. But he doesn't know that for sure, and he isn't even sure that doing this will be enough to satisfy the resort. They could drag their clean images through the mud and still disappear. Which begs the question: is it worth it?
Even Hiyori's not sure. All he knows is that doing nothing to try to protect themselves is making him feel increasingly anxious. But then, if they end up doing it just so he can feel less anxious and it doesn't help protect them, won't that mean they dirtied their images for nothing? Then he'll have to live with the guilt forever.
... no. One thing at a time. He banishes those thoughts and focuses on Jun's first point, which is a valid one: do they even know for sure that the loophole works?]
Well, I guess we don't have proof yet... Although I'm not sure how we would get proof. We could try to survey people, but then we'd just have to take their word for it.
[The unspoken alternative is that they could find out by trial and error. But is Jun even willing to do this? What about him? Is he willing to do it? The latter is a bit complicated, but as for the former...
The vibe he gets is "no." Jun says he finds the idea creepy. Which, well... who could blame him? It is creepy! Hiyori bought that canopy because he didn't like the idea of the House spying. True, being spied on by an unseen evil entity does seem somewhat different from being watched by a fellow guest. But is that a good difference or a bad one? At least an invisible entity is easier to ignore...
"Creepiness" isn't the only hurdle. Jun brings up some more objections after that, and those are also valid points. What they do is just between them, their own "world of two." Jun isn't sure he could, er, "perform" in front of other people, even though he's a performer by trade. But that still makes sense, because this is a very different type of "performance" than what they're used to! And then he brings up a third point, and it's that one which leaves the biggest impact on Hiyori.
"I dunno if I'll be normal 'bout anyone getting to see you the way I do."
At first he just blinks. Then his cheeks start to color more. Not from embarrassment, this time; it's more like he's touched. For all the (very good) reasons not to do this, that was one he'd never considered. But it's Jun who brings it up. And instead of telling him to think about their careers or their images, or how Ibara would kill them, or how it's too weird or too perverted, Jun's chief objection is this: he doesn't want to share him with anyone else. Not even just his faces or reactions; not one single part of him.
This realization leaves a deep impression on him, quieting him for a moment, before he nods.]
... so that's it.
[The smallest of smiles forms on his lips.]
I understand now. Jun-kun wants that side of me all to himself.
[Maybe it's silly for him to be happy. Jun feeling that way makes things harder, after all. But he does feel happy, as well as relieved. The whole reason they were in this mess, Hiyori figured, was because of his selfish love: because he wanted to keep Jun all to himself. Now it turns out Jun felt the same way all along, and it's not just flattering; it's a weight off his chest.
And he was a fool not to consider that Jun might've been the exact same as him. Wasn't he? Because after all,]
I'm the same way.
[He squeezes Jun's hands again, still smiling.]
I don't like the thought of anyone else seeing Jun-kun's cute faces. Jun-kun's face, voice, body, heart and soul all belong to me during those times. Which is exactly how it should be! I do like showing off my cute face, but the way I get with Jun-kun is sort of... well...
[He blushes harder and trails off. There isn't usually a mirror around when he has sex with Jun, but he knows he can't look dignified. He gets embarrassed, his head turns to mush, and he'll hear himself start saying things that sound like nonsense. Like that time at the start of the week, when Jun wore that collar: although he'd meant to stay in control, holding the reins both literally and figuratively, he'd ended up going totally delirious, saying all sorts of things about how Jun was such a good boy, such a good pet, and he was so proud to be Jun's owner, and so on. If anyone had been around to hear, he would've died from embarrassment. Good thing his next Mating Season profile won't make the petplay public knowledge or anything!
So, it's a valid point. On both sides. He doesn't want other people seeing the side of him that only Jun sees, and he doesn't want them seeing the side of Jun that only he brings out. Which means what? It means they can't do this. That's what.
.... or at least...
His expression shifts again, going from embarrassed to contemplative. He speaks slowly.]
You don't want anyone else seeing that side of me, and I don't want anyone else seeing you the same way I do. So, the most sensible thing would be to try and find some other way.
[To protect themselves from disappearing, that is.]
But if Jun-kun is curious, I did just think of two ways this could still work. In theory, anyway. I don't know about in practice. And I certainly don't want either one of us to get hurt. So, if Jun-kun wants me to drop this whole idea because he doesn't like it, I won't say anything more.
[But if he does want him to continue, well... He'd better buckle up, because this is about to get even weirder.]
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Nope, it shouldn't hurt at all. The extra sleep might even leave you feeling refreshed and ready to start your next workout~♪
[He won't ask Jun to sleep in with him every morning. Even Hiyori isn't that demanding. But staying in bed together slightly more often would be nice. And it'd give Jun plenty of time to admire his sleeping face!
It'd be nicer than the conversation they're currently having, anyway. That's for sure.
Jun is visibly struggling to wrap his head around things, which Hiyori can't fault him for. He's had more time to think about this than Jun has, turning the "loophole" over in his mind even as he put off discussing things. But here they are, finally talking, and now there's no hiding from all that the idea entails. Yes, he's talking about the stuff they do in private, and yes, they'd get in horrendous amounts of trouble if word ever got out at home. He wants to think the resort exists in its own separate world, that their actions here won't come back to haunt them later. But he doesn't know that for sure, and he isn't even sure that doing this will be enough to satisfy the resort. They could drag their clean images through the mud and still disappear. Which begs the question: is it worth it?
Even Hiyori's not sure. All he knows is that doing nothing to try to protect themselves is making him feel increasingly anxious. But then, if they end up doing it just so he can feel less anxious and it doesn't help protect them, won't that mean they dirtied their images for nothing? Then he'll have to live with the guilt forever.
... no. One thing at a time. He banishes those thoughts and focuses on Jun's first point, which is a valid one: do they even know for sure that the loophole works?]
Well, I guess we don't have proof yet... Although I'm not sure how we would get proof. We could try to survey people, but then we'd just have to take their word for it.
[The unspoken alternative is that they could find out by trial and error. But is Jun even willing to do this? What about him? Is he willing to do it? The latter is a bit complicated, but as for the former...
The vibe he gets is "no." Jun says he finds the idea creepy. Which, well... who could blame him? It is creepy! Hiyori bought that canopy because he didn't like the idea of the House spying. True, being spied on by an unseen evil entity does seem somewhat different from being watched by a fellow guest. But is that a good difference or a bad one? At least an invisible entity is easier to ignore...
"Creepiness" isn't the only hurdle. Jun brings up some more objections after that, and those are also valid points. What they do is just between them, their own "world of two." Jun isn't sure he could, er, "perform" in front of other people, even though he's a performer by trade. But that still makes sense, because this is a very different type of "performance" than what they're used to! And then he brings up a third point, and it's that one which leaves the biggest impact on Hiyori.
"I dunno if I'll be normal 'bout anyone getting to see you the way I do."
At first he just blinks. Then his cheeks start to color more. Not from embarrassment, this time; it's more like he's touched. For all the (very good) reasons not to do this, that was one he'd never considered. But it's Jun who brings it up. And instead of telling him to think about their careers or their images, or how Ibara would kill them, or how it's too weird or too perverted, Jun's chief objection is this: he doesn't want to share him with anyone else. Not even just his faces or reactions; not one single part of him.
This realization leaves a deep impression on him, quieting him for a moment, before he nods.]
... so that's it.
[The smallest of smiles forms on his lips.]
I understand now. Jun-kun wants that side of me all to himself.
[Maybe it's silly for him to be happy. Jun feeling that way makes things harder, after all. But he does feel happy, as well as relieved. The whole reason they were in this mess, Hiyori figured, was because of his selfish love: because he wanted to keep Jun all to himself. Now it turns out Jun felt the same way all along, and it's not just flattering; it's a weight off his chest.
And he was a fool not to consider that Jun might've been the exact same as him. Wasn't he? Because after all,]
I'm the same way.
[He squeezes Jun's hands again, still smiling.]
I don't like the thought of anyone else seeing Jun-kun's cute faces. Jun-kun's face, voice, body, heart and soul all belong to me during those times. Which is exactly how it should be! I do like showing off my cute face, but the way I get with Jun-kun is sort of... well...
[He blushes harder and trails off. There isn't usually a mirror around when he has sex with Jun, but he knows he can't look dignified. He gets embarrassed, his head turns to mush, and he'll hear himself start saying things that sound like nonsense. Like that time at the start of the week, when Jun wore that collar: although he'd meant to stay in control, holding the reins both literally and figuratively, he'd ended up going totally delirious, saying all sorts of things about how Jun was such a good boy, such a good pet, and he was so proud to be Jun's owner, and so on. If anyone had been around to hear, he would've died from embarrassment.
Good thing his next Mating Season profile won't make the petplay public knowledge or anything!So, it's a valid point. On both sides. He doesn't want other people seeing the side of him that only Jun sees, and he doesn't want them seeing the side of Jun that only he brings out. Which means what? It means they can't do this. That's what.
.... or at least...
His expression shifts again, going from embarrassed to contemplative. He speaks slowly.]
You don't want anyone else seeing that side of me, and I don't want anyone else seeing you the same way I do. So, the most sensible thing would be to try and find some other way.
[To protect themselves from disappearing, that is.]
But if Jun-kun is curious, I did just think of two ways this could still work. In theory, anyway. I don't know about in practice. And I certainly don't want either one of us to get hurt. So, if Jun-kun wants me to drop this whole idea because he doesn't like it, I won't say anything more.
[But if he does want him to continue, well... He'd better buckle up, because this is about to get even weirder.]