Whyever wouldn't I be? I know what that string game required.
[He says matter-of-factly, like he's always been perfectly reasonable about this stuff.
... even though he knows he hasn't been.
In the beginning, he was intensely jealous. He was territorial, possessive, and—though he's reluctant to admit it—he was insecure, too. He'd been worried Jun would get snatched away under his nose; worried Jun would find someone who's more special to him, more lovable, less exhausting and less "difficult." As a result of those fears, he pulled out all the stops to keep Jun to himself: telling him they mustn't participate in Game 52, insisting on holing up together during the Springtime game... not to mention the way he treated Monika.
Faced with a girl who transparently wanted to sleep with Jun, Hiyori behaved badly. He was rude to her, he insulted her repeatedly, and he used underhanded tactics to try and push her away from Jun. Stuff like inviting other people to her "private lesson" with Jun, and trying to hook her up with Leo. In retrospect, he feels bad about the things he said to her, harsh words borne from fear and jealousy. She could be rather rude herself, but she was just an insecure girl looking for love. Someone who'd apparently been alone most of her life. But now she's gone: turned into a statue, presumably, her dream of finding love destroyed. At least for now, but possibly forever. He should've been kind to her, but he wasn't; he was too fearful of Jun being snatched away.
So what exactly changed? Why doesn't the same fear still grip his heart? He used to be afraid they'd end up like Steve and Victoria; where has that fear gone?
It's not that he's any more amenable to Jun being "stolen." If Jun forgot all about their love or announced that he was leaving him for someone else, he'd be devastated. If Jun didn't return one night, and then it turned out he was warming someone else's bed, Hiyori would be upset. But those aren't things he worries much about, despite the resort being the resort. And the reason for that is because...
Well. Because he trusts Jun. Doesn't he?
He trusts Jun meant it when he said he wanted to be together. He trusts that Jun was serious about their "vows," that his love for him is real. This whole time, Jun's been faithful, after all. Despite all the temptations surrounding him, he hasn't taken advantage of them. They had their resort marriage during the Strings game, and thanks to Hua Cheng, they're bound by the "red string of fate." Hiyori didn't have to force any of that: Jun made those vows and wrapped that string around his finger willingly. Which means what, exactly?
That for just one night, it shouldn't be a problem if they invite someone else into their world. Should it?
Maybe he's not 100% positive. It would be one thing if Leona just watched, but could he accept seeing someone else put their hands on Jun's body? It's a tough one to be sure! But he's also not sure yet if that's what Jun would want, so for the time being, they can continue talking about it!]
If he wanted to keep it a secret, he should've been more subtle about it. Nothing gets by me! ♪
[He says with a smile. But underneath that smile, he's watching Jun closely. Rather than seeming jealous or uncertain, Jun looks intrigued to hear more. More about Leona finding him appealing. And that's, well... that's something of a surprise. Maybe he really was serious about not being the jealous type? Maybe it's just been Hiyori all along? Or, maybe, just maybe, this is different: when it's someone they both know, who wants both of them rather than just one.]
Well, other than saying I look good, you know how I offered to show him my "Aura" thing, right? I did that by cuddling him on our couch briefly. He agreed to it, but he sort of threw me off when he said "I want you." Imagine hearing that from a man out of nowhere. But it turned out he was saying, "I want to cuddle you!"
[He thinks back on thosetwo convos, shaking his head to himself with a wry smile as he remembers all the freaking out he did internally. He jumped to a lot of conclusions!
All the same, were those conclusions really wrong? He looks at Jun somewhat cautiously after hearing that last question, wanting to know his thoughts, determined not to jump to conclusions this time.]
But I do think he would enjoy more than that, whether it's a "private show" or something else. So I guess it depends on what we'd like to do for him. We could invite him into our world as an audience member and show him a lovely dream, if that's alright with you. But as for "audience participation," well... I guess that depends on how we feel about it in the moment.
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[He says matter-of-factly, like he's always been perfectly reasonable about this stuff.
... even though he knows he hasn't been.
In the beginning, he was intensely jealous. He was territorial, possessive, and—though he's reluctant to admit it—he was insecure, too. He'd been worried Jun would get snatched away under his nose; worried Jun would find someone who's more special to him, more lovable, less exhausting and less "difficult." As a result of those fears, he pulled out all the stops to keep Jun to himself: telling him they mustn't participate in Game 52, insisting on holing up together during the Springtime game... not to mention the way he treated Monika.
Faced with a girl who transparently wanted to sleep with Jun, Hiyori behaved badly. He was rude to her, he insulted her repeatedly, and he used underhanded tactics to try and push her away from Jun. Stuff like inviting other people to her "private lesson" with Jun, and trying to hook her up with Leo. In retrospect, he feels bad about the things he said to her, harsh words borne from fear and jealousy. She could be rather rude herself, but she was just an insecure girl looking for love. Someone who'd apparently been alone most of her life. But now she's gone: turned into a statue, presumably, her dream of finding love destroyed. At least for now, but possibly forever. He should've been kind to her, but he wasn't; he was too fearful of Jun being snatched away.
So what exactly changed? Why doesn't the same fear still grip his heart? He used to be afraid they'd end up like Steve and Victoria; where has that fear gone?
It's not that he's any more amenable to Jun being "stolen." If Jun forgot all about their love or announced that he was leaving him for someone else, he'd be devastated. If Jun didn't return one night, and then it turned out he was warming someone else's bed, Hiyori would be upset. But those aren't things he worries much about, despite the resort being the resort. And the reason for that is because...
Well. Because he trusts Jun. Doesn't he?
He trusts Jun meant it when he said he wanted to be together. He trusts that Jun was serious about their "vows," that his love for him is real. This whole time, Jun's been faithful, after all. Despite all the temptations surrounding him, he hasn't taken advantage of them. They had their resort marriage during the Strings game, and thanks to Hua Cheng, they're bound by the "red string of fate." Hiyori didn't have to force any of that: Jun made those vows and wrapped that string around his finger willingly. Which means what, exactly?
That for just one night, it shouldn't be a problem if they invite someone else into their world. Should it?
Maybe he's not 100% positive. It would be one thing if Leona just watched, but could he accept seeing someone else put their hands on Jun's body? It's a tough one to be sure! But he's also not sure yet if that's what Jun would want, so for the time being, they can continue talking about it!]
If he wanted to keep it a secret, he should've been more subtle about it. Nothing gets by me! ♪
[He says with a smile. But underneath that smile, he's watching Jun closely. Rather than seeming jealous or uncertain, Jun looks intrigued to hear more. More about Leona finding him appealing. And that's, well... that's something of a surprise. Maybe he really was serious about not being the jealous type? Maybe it's just been Hiyori all along? Or, maybe, just maybe, this is different: when it's someone they both know, who wants both of them rather than just one.]
Well, other than saying I look good, you know how I offered to show him my "Aura" thing, right? I did that by cuddling him on our couch briefly. He agreed to it, but he sort of threw me off when he said "I want you." Imagine hearing that from a man out of nowhere. But it turned out he was saying, "I want to cuddle you!"
[He thinks back on those two convos, shaking his head to himself with a wry smile as he remembers all the freaking out he did internally. He jumped to a lot of conclusions!
All the same, were those conclusions really wrong? He looks at Jun somewhat cautiously after hearing that last question, wanting to know his thoughts, determined not to jump to conclusions this time.]
But I do think he would enjoy more than that, whether it's a "private show" or something else. So I guess it depends on what we'd like to do for him. We could invite him into our world as an audience member and show him a lovely dream, if that's alright with you. But as for "audience participation," well... I guess that depends on how we feel about it in the moment.