[ It no longer matters what his feelings are, sure, they're filled with unfamiliar, unhappy thoughts. A feeling he shouldn't be throwing around while the air around them feels almost intolerable.
But when you're unsure when your own feelings changed and when Hiyori became an important person to him, he'll never know. From the beginning, he'd always been important to Jun, despite being unsure about life. Maybe Jun had been in love with him before coming here and hadn't realised it, the comfort he's always felt may have been love. But the thought doesn't matter right now. All that matters is comforting Hiyori as he needs it.
And it's something he's committed to for the rest of his life. From SS to their dorm life afterwards, and now in a place filled with temptation around every corner. Even with those thoughts, no one has ever occupied his thoughts as much. Even with the realisation they're inseparable, he's well aware of how miserable life would be without the comfort of having one another close. He's more than realised life can't go back to how it once was.
Hiyori exudes warmth despite the tears, with Jun tenderly embracing him, offering comfort. ]
And I'm not gonna go anywhere, Ohii-san.
[ He murmurs gently into Hiyori's hair, placing tender kisses against his forehead. Jun's fingers weave through the strands, offering soothing words of comfort and gentle hums as he embraces Hiyori more tightly. ]
... seriously, none of this really matters if ya don't know or feel confused 'bout it. There's stuff 'bout me I'm never gonna share with anyone else, but I'm gonna say this: I doubt my parents give a damn 'bout where I am. They're probably real relieved I'm gone, and that's got nothing to do with you not looking out for me. What I'm tryna say is... my real "loved ones" are you guys in Eden. And Ibara's gonna be pissed we're both gone. You mighta not realised it, but you've been looking out for me way more than you know.
[ His hand moves to rub circles across Hiyori's back, smoothing down the cresses in his shirt as best he can. ]
That sorta game is gonna reflect poorly on us as idols, and you think I didn't know that from the beginning? I knew nothing before coming here, but coming here and reading the stuff 'bout the Game 52 and the House, and these damn Watches... To be real honest, I wouldn't survive being here without Ohii-san.
[ It’s not just because they’re together now. He’s scared of who he might become without his partner, especially in a place that’s a lot like the old Reimei. He never wants to go through that again.
Seeing how Hiyori looks at him with such a sad expression, almost as if there's a heartrending, mournful gaze behind it, breaks his heart. ]
You have no idea how much you've already had me, whether you think you're bein' selfish or not. And yeah, guess part of me is a bit selfish too. 'Cause it's seriously embarrassing, but I wanted you to want me just as much as I wanted you. Err... I sorta hoped that's all...
[ Honestly, Jun should’ve seen it coming. He should have noticed how Hiyori acted back home, but it just flew right over his head. ]
Hey, no one's gonna punish me, alright~? I've got pretty thick skin, but since you're worried 'bout it... just talk to me. Nothing scares me anymore, Ohii-san.
[ Each word is honest, filled with determination and love. He offers another warm smile, softly gliding his thumb beneath Hiyori's tear ducts, trying to dry them up. ]
well now you've said it!!! conquest pt.2
But when you're unsure when your own feelings changed and when Hiyori became an important person to him, he'll never know. From the beginning, he'd always been important to Jun, despite being unsure about life. Maybe Jun had been in love with him before coming here and hadn't realised it, the comfort he's always felt may have been love. But the thought doesn't matter right now. All that matters is comforting Hiyori as he needs it.
And it's something he's committed to for the rest of his life. From SS to their dorm life afterwards, and now in a place filled with temptation around every corner. Even with those thoughts, no one has ever occupied his thoughts as much. Even with the realisation they're inseparable, he's well aware of how miserable life would be without the comfort of having one another close. He's more than realised life can't go back to how it once was.
Hiyori exudes warmth despite the tears, with Jun tenderly embracing him, offering comfort. ]
And I'm not gonna go anywhere, Ohii-san.
[ He murmurs gently into Hiyori's hair, placing tender kisses against his forehead. Jun's fingers weave through the strands, offering soothing words of comfort and gentle hums as he embraces Hiyori more tightly. ]
... seriously, none of this really matters if ya don't know or feel confused 'bout it. There's stuff 'bout me I'm never gonna share with anyone else, but I'm gonna say this: I doubt my parents give a damn 'bout where I am. They're probably real relieved I'm gone, and that's got nothing to do with you not looking out for me. What I'm tryna say is... my real "loved ones" are you guys in Eden. And Ibara's gonna be pissed we're both gone. You mighta not realised it, but you've been looking out for me way more than you know.
[ His hand moves to rub circles across Hiyori's back, smoothing down the cresses in his shirt as best he can. ]
That sorta game is gonna reflect poorly on us as idols, and you think I didn't know that from the beginning? I knew nothing before coming here, but coming here and reading the stuff 'bout the Game 52 and the House, and these damn Watches... To be real honest, I wouldn't survive being here without Ohii-san.
[ It’s not just because they’re together now. He’s scared of who he might become without his partner, especially in a place that’s a lot like the old Reimei. He never wants to go through that again.
Seeing how Hiyori looks at him with such a sad expression, almost as if there's a heartrending, mournful gaze behind it, breaks his heart. ]
You have no idea how much you've already had me, whether you think you're bein' selfish or not. And yeah, guess part of me is a bit selfish too. 'Cause it's seriously embarrassing, but I wanted you to want me just as much as I wanted you. Err... I sorta hoped that's all...
[ Honestly, Jun should’ve seen it coming. He should have noticed how Hiyori acted back home, but it just flew right over his head. ]
Hey, no one's gonna punish me, alright~? I've got pretty thick skin, but since you're worried 'bout it... just talk to me. Nothing scares me anymore, Ohii-san.
[ Each word is honest, filled with determination and love. He offers another warm smile, softly gliding his thumb beneath Hiyori's tear ducts, trying to dry them up. ]