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sazanami jun ([personal profile] blundering) wrote2024-03-03 10:46 am
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-08-26 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
(On the night after this thread...)

[He falls asleep the same way he has the past few nights: clinging tightly to Jun for warmth, his arms around Jun's middle and his cold face pressed into Jun's neck. In his dream, however, he's alone.

His footsteps echo through a dark, frigid hallway. He hugs his arms against the chill, shuffling forward slowly—towards what, he doesn't know. Perhaps he'd been exploring and gotten lost in one of the resort's endless halls; all he knows is that there's nowhere to go but forward. He lifts his wrist and turns on his smartwatch. The glow of the screen provides at least a little illumination, which he uses to peer down the hall. Nope, no end that he can see. Then he looks to his side.

There's something on his left. When he casts his watch in that direction, he sees that it's a statue. There are several in a row, all stone statues standing on pedestals, not just on his left but also to his right; both sides of the hall are decorated with them. That's nothing new around here, but it still gives him the creeps. Then he hears a humming noise.

A light above one of the statues suddenly turned on. It pierces the darkness, bathing the statue in an eerie, ethereal glow. When he sees what it looks like in the light, his stomach drops.

He knows whose figure this is. The small stature and short ponytail, the arms held aloft like a conductor leading a symphony orchestra. That smile. They all point to one thing, one person. And yet a part of his brain refuses to accept the truth, even as he drags himself closer and looks at the statue's face.

This can't be Leo-kun. He just saw Leo not too long ago. It was close to a week ago, granted. He'd meant to check on Leo a few days ago but gotten sidetracked on the way up to his room—that was when he ran into Esikko and the whole connection thing began. But Leo has just been holed up in his studio making music, right? He failed to answer his messages because he was busy composing. That's what Hiyori assumed. Not that he disappeared. Not that the House turned him into this.

He feels too sick to continue looking. He looks down at his smartwatch instead, and his clumsy fingers fumble to pull up Rinne's contact. He gives him a ring. No response. He rings again. Still no response—a problem with the reception? He opens his messages and tries texting instead, furiously typing a stream of accusatory gibberish. Come here. You have to see this. Did you know about this? Why didn't you stop this? I look after Jun-kun. Looking after Leo-kun was YOUR job. Did you even check on him? Why didn't you do anything? You should've stopped this. We should've stopped this. It doesn't matter what he types, though, because none of the messages go through. And what's stranger still is the message he receives. ERROR: User not found. What does that mean, "user not found"? 

And then a second spotlight hums to life directly behind him. 

Slowly, with his heart beating wildly against his ribcage, he turns around. An icy feeling grips his heart when he sees the next statue lit up: a tall man, rambunctious body language, tufts of hair sticking out every which way on his head, a smirk carved into his face. Not an approximation of Rinne-senpai but the real thing, frozen in time, no longer a menace or a rebel but a fixture of the resort.

He's nauseous. He's shaking all over, and not just from the cold. There's nothing else to do, no one else to turn to except the one person he's always turned to. The one person he can rely on in the resort, the only thing he has left now that Rinne and Leo are like this. He rings Jun's watch.

No response.

Come here, he texts him, his fingers trembling on the tiny screen. Please come here. I'm scared.

The screen buffers endlessly. He's still waiting for the message to send when a third light hums on at the end of the hall.

Slowly, he lifts his eyes from the screen.

This time his thoughts don't race. This time his head is completely, utterly blank. He doesn't comprehend what he sees. His feet move without his brain's knowledge or consent, taking him to the end of the hall, until he's standing directly before that statue. But his eyes must be playing tricks on him. That can't be— No, that can't be—

His eyes raise higher—

(They can't)

until they fall—

(They can't take Jun-kun away)

on the statue's face.

(Anyone but Jun-kun)

He collapses to his knees on the cold tile.
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No...

[It starts out quiet. Something half-gasped, half-sobbed into Jun's shoulder.]

No!

[And then it changes to something louder. Inside the dream, his own anguished cry pierces his ears, and that's exactly how he wakes up: with a scream on his lips and hot tears spilling from his eyes, wetting the fabric of Jun's shirt, his fingers clenched tight in Jun's clothes.]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-08-26 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
Then I'm not sure what you call that. A Freudian slip?

[Yep, he's stumped. But after a moment, he shakes his head, his expression brightening up again.]

Well, as long as you feel fine, that's what counts. There's no need to make a big deal out of some silly noises. Perhaps you felt so glad to be eating here with me that you got overwhelmed, so you simply didn't know what to say, and your brain decided to substitute some nonsense sounds! ♪

[He proposes this new theory cheerfully, taking his fork and using it to stab the strawberry that fell on the table. He transfers to Jun's plate for now, picking up another piece of pastry with his fork so that they can try the feeding thing again.

But in his mind he's still hung up on the barking. And after going over their previous interaction again he adds,
]

Unless it was "Good boy" that was the trigger. It does sound similar to "good girl," which is what I call Mary.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-08-28 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
[The sound of Jun's voice penetrates the dark cloud of misery surrounding him. He pulls his face out of Jun's shirt and tries to look at him, blinking blearily through wet eyelashes.]

Ju... n... kun?

[His voice trembles, confused and fragile and vulnerable. He's still out of it, still waking up and still terrified after his dream. His heart feels like it's been ripped in two. But the sound of Jun's voice and Jun's warm, solid presence bring him back to reality. His fingers pull tight in Jun's shirt again and his eyes well up with even more tears.]

Jun-kun...!

[He reburies his face in Jun's chest and sobs. Crying from stress, but also from relief. Jun is here. He's with Jun. He can touch him, hear his voice, feel his warmth. He can listen to his heartbeat—proof that he's alive. Jun-kun isn't a statue. Jun-kun is here in his arms. It was just a dream, Jun-kun is alive.

Jun-kun is alive for how much longer?

His chest constricts and another harsh sob wracks his body. His fears haven't gone away—that dream made them feel all too horribly real. But he keeps clinging to Jun, unable and unwilling to let him go after that.
]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-08-30 02:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[He's still not sure he buys that it was just "some noise." But, as he said, he's willing to drop it! Today is Jun-kun's birthday, so he won't bully his partner too much. They can enjoy a lovely breakfast and leave those doglike noises in the past!

Or so he thought. But then Jun makes one again in the present.

The bit of pastry on Hiyori's fork falls off. Again. ... At least this time it lands on Jun's plate next to the strawberry rather than on the table, but that might just be the only saving grace here. His eyes bulge. No way.
]

That is the trigger!

[He sound shocked by his own discovery. Alas, his loud and booming voice does nothing to divert attention away from them. At least somebody barking over breakfast probably isn't the weirdest behavior their fellow guests have seen in public before. For most it wouldn't even crack the top 10!

But it's definitely weird for Jun-kun. Hiyori looks at him with a mix of curiosity, surprise, and faint concern.
]

... is it psychological? Or do you think it's some kind of curse? You haven't noticed any other doglike thoughts or feelings, have you?
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[personal profile] riskybeenus 2024-08-30 02:50 pm (UTC)(link)
Junjun, yer hurtin' my feelings here. Ya sayin' ya don't know the answer to that until now?

[Yes. The answer is yes. He will in fact fight them, rather sneakily yet aggressively, as he always has with ES when they try to pull the wool over their eyes. He doesn't like being manipulated, after all.]

Well, if yer worried 'bout cheatin', maybe ya just need a third party who doesn't mind just watchin'.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-08-31 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[Tears continue to spill from his eyes. But Jun's warmth and comfort and affection do, at least, help calm him down. He asks if he had a nightmare—did he? After a moment he half-hums, half-whimpers his response.]

M-Mm.

[It's not the first nightmare he remembers having here. It's not even the first one Jun would remember him having. The first one happened during the Clubs game, as punishment for bailing out of Truth or Dare early; an erotic nightmare where he got chased around by different objects all trying to insert themselves into his orifices. He tossed and turned while that was happening, but he was cagey about the details when Jun asked about it later, just saying he had a weird dream. And then the second one occurred after Rinne's head turned into a clownfish head. He did wake up screaming in fright from that one, and Jun comforted him afterwards.

But this isn't anything like those dreams. Those dreams didn't make him cry.

He trembles in all Jun's arms, from cold and from cold-blooded fear. He doesn't know where to begin or how to explain himself: that it didn't just feel like a nightmare, but something terrifyingly real. That he's still afraid it's real, even now; not that Jun has turned into a statue, but that he will eventually. That he'll leave him all alone, that he'll disappear and die and it'll be his fault, his selfish love that killed him. Hiyori's never felt so powerless, so useless before. His stomach churns with fear and guilt and he feels sick. He needs to tell Jun. He can't keep it in any longer.
]

Jun-kun... I...

[He shifts his head against Jun's shirt, starting to look up at him.

But before he can formulate anymore words, a shrill sound emits from the other room. One that sounds like cheep cheep cheep! or chirp chirp chirp! or squawk squawk squawk! It's their lovely little bird daughter. She's woken up and now she's crying out, too.
]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-09-01 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
It's not a jab! It's just that those noises you're making sounded like a dog's bark. Plus there is that collar they gave you...

[He trails off, his cheeks heating as he flashes back to the best sex he's ever had in his life.

But nope, he can't be thinking about that now, since they're in public!! He shakes his head, hurriedly trying to clear away those thoughts!
]

Well, anyway.

[He coughs a bit.]

... I was just concerned, since some people get cursed on their birthdays here. I wanted to make sure they hadn't done anything to mess with your head, that's all. But it's just some involuntary response to the way I talk, you think?

[It literally hasn't occurred to him that anyone could call Jun a "good boy" and trigger the same result. He thinks it's a unique reaction to him! He's Jun's loving owner, after all.]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-09-02 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[The bird's cry pierces his ears from the other room. Hearing her tugs on his heartstrings, despite how preoccupied he is with his own misery. No matter how sad he is, he still has sympathy to spare for a helpless baby animal, especially one who depends on him like a child. And yet he's too tired to get out of bed. He's exhausted physically and emotionally, and even when he was worried sick about Nagisa during SS and wracked with guilt about how things were going in ex-fine, he's never felt like this before.

The good news is that Jun is willing to get up and check on the bird for him. The bad news is that this requires Jun to leave. Hiyori's stomach clenches at the thought of him going, even though it's just to the other room, and at that moment, he realizes he's just like their bird: clinging to Jun for warmth and relying on him just to get through the night. The Jin Sagami poster hangs on the wall next to them, and the phrase "security blanket" echoes in his mind.

Slowly, he untucks his face. His grip on Jun's shirt loosens and he meets Jun's gaze, blinking at his words, surprised by the suggestion that the bird might have sensed something is wrong. Did he wake her? Then Jun suggests bringing her here, and he pauses, thinking about the bird, about the nightmare, about the conversation him and Jun need to have.

He gives a small, subdued nod.
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... mm.

[It's all he says. But yes, Jun can bring the bird over, if she's amenable. He'll let go and sit up in bed, allowing Jun to leave, despite how clingy he still feels.]
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-09-06 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[Ah, now wouldn't that be nice? To go to bed with the cute, collared Jun-kun every da— ... er, every alternating Thursday! Not every day, since that would be too much of a good thing! His brain would turn to mush!

Though it still might not be as mushy as Jun-kun's brain, since Jun seems to keep forgetting how human speech works.
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I agree it's probably me, since if you were a dog—I know you're not of course, but if you were—then your owner would be none other than me! But it can't just be my voice by itself. I've talked to you plenty since we got up, but you didn't bark until just a minute ago. And it was because I said the so-called trigger words, right? The one that starts with "g," and the other one that starts with "b"!

[He waves his fork around as he explains his theory (once again ignoring anyone who might be watching or listening in). He's pretty sure he's cracked the code! (Even though he's wrong about it just being his voice that triggers the response!) But supposing he is right, what do you even call this? A curse? A Pavlovian response?]
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[personal profile] riskybeenus 2024-09-06 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Never say never, Sazanamin. I ain't sayin' ya gotta be a P**nhub regular, but if ya trust someone who wouldn't mind watchin', ya might at least get their card. It ain't cheating if they ain't participating.

[He shrugs, but he won't push it further than that. He isn't exactly an exhibitionist himself, even if he does like to perform for a partner.]

I ain't got yer issue, so never really had to.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-09-06 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jun really is a good boy. Kissing him before he goes, smiling at him so gently even though his sleep was interrupted. There is a pang in his chest when Jun enters the other room, as pathetic as that is. He feels so cold without him, and he's just so scared, so anxious something will happen to take Jun away.

But he need not be too anxious. The gold string connecting their hands hasn't been severed, and Hiyori can feel the slight tug as Jun moves around in the other room. A constant reassurance that Jun is still moving around, still alive. Not frozen in stone. It may be inconvenient in some ways, but it's also a comfort. After that dream, it feels like a lifeline.

(Is that why it stubbornly won't come off...?)

He hears Jun's voice amidst the chirps in the other room, his own nickname among other words. And the gentleness in Jun's voice makes him crack a faint smile, despite everything. Then he thinks about Jun's smile as he left the room and his heart hurts. More than anything, he wants to protect that smile.

Then he thinks about the glimpse he'd gotten in his dream of the statue's frozen face at the end of the hall, and his smile falls all the way off.

Jun returns cradling the little bird like a baby. She's quieter now, her voice soft. Jun's presence and his soft smile calms her down, it seems. They really are alike, him and that bird. What would either of them do without him?

He watches the bird in her nest for a long moment, before finally looking up at Jun from his position on the bed. By "come here" does Jun mean get out of bed? He'd rather have Jun join him again. He almost demands it, almost reaches out his arms and prompts Jun to hold him. It's what he wants, and Jun would do it if he was asked. Hiyori trained him well in that regard. But then he thinks about what he needs to tell Jun, where he needs to begin, and his stomach churns, his lungs choking with guilt. In that moment he feels like he doesn't deserve to be held.

His eyes stare down at the bedcovers.
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You might want to sit down. There's...

[He swallows, that toxic concoction of guilt and fear bubbling up in his throat.]

There's something I didn't tell you. Even though I promised not to hide anything. It's...

[He shivers, from his nerves and from the cold.]

It's about why people go missing.
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[personal profile] tfy 2024-09-07 07:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Huh?

[Hiyori blinks back in response, before cocking an eyebrow.]

You don't think I actually thought you were a dog this whole time, do you? That would just be silly! Jun-kun is an idol, and my beloved partner. Of course he's not a dog.

[He lets that sit for a moment. But then, inevitably, he adds:]

Though he is somewhat dog-like. And hyena-like!

[Yep. He just had to say it.]

And I guess he's occasionally cat-like.

[... but he didn't have to say that. Alas, between the Springtime game and Jun's brief stint as a nekomimi strawberry maid, Hiyori simply couldn't resist. Still with an innocent smile, he digs back into his own breakfast (which is probably a spinach and feta danish if we're still going by the Tous Les Jours menu), munching while Jun ponders what the trigger might be. After finishing his bite he says,]

You don't want to keep making those noises, do you? I'd rather not cause a scene or spoil your birthday, so of course I won't say them.

[He sips his flavored tea. Then he adds,]

Unless you think we should test it out just to be sure. But if so, we can do that back in our room.

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